This House is a House of Trouble

Sally Timms & Marc Almond

Written by Marc Almond, 1987

Preparation for the Next Stage of Ascension

By the Andromedans

Channelled through Natalie Glasson, 18 December 2015

Greetings, love and consciousness. We, the Andromedans, extend to you in support of your ascension and the valuable period of evolution you are moving through at this time. We have spoken in our previous communication with you about the chaos which is developing or which you may becoming aware of within your being and reality. We shared that the chaos has a purpose of awakening a light explosion within your being creating a powerful healing and awakening of divine consciousness for you to explore in your current reality. The Arcturians shared in their communication with you that we, the Andromedans, are selecting evolved souls who are awake and aware at this time to anchor supreme love through their beings into the Earth to influence and support all of humanity to shift into a vibration of love. With the information of our previous communications in mind we wish to share additional information to support you at this major period of your growth.

In order for the light of your soul and the Creator to explode from within your being into a beacon of light there is a need to be aware of the lesson your soul has come to the Earth to achieve and overcome. This lesson, challenge or hurdle has the purpose of creating unison between your soul and every reality of your being, for example, your body, auric field, reality, mind and emotions. Often this lesson, challenge or hurdle feels like a limitation, something you are being denied. Even though you may have placed effort and focus upon healing or transforming this area, it may still feel out of your reach. It may also be the cause or be manifesting as chaos in your current reality.

Any form of chaos is required to be approached from a space of love, even amusement and non-attachment if possible. There is no need to activate drama or negative feelings within in response to small experiences of chaos manifesting within your reality. Allow yourself to enjoy being observant with the knowingness that the chaos is proof that you are moving forth to experience light exploding from within your being. For greater experiences of chaos, you are not required to act or react in a certain way, simply to hold love, forgiveness, faith and trust, for yourself especially.

Your physical body is your greatest companion for your soul as is your reality, however your physical body is in tune, sensitive to and aware of your soul, with the ability to embody your soul. This is the greatest purpose at this time. Many of you may know and experience your soul regularly. However the chaos is forming in order to enhance the bond between your physical body and your soul. If you are aware of the single challenge or hurdle in your life which you so wish to experience, then you may realise that to aid its manifestation there is a need to either feel the presence of your soul allowing the soul to connect with your physical body. Maybe you have already achieved this so there may be a need to allow the soul and physical body to work in harmony to aid manifestations in your physical reality. Therefore, there is a need to contemplate whether you are being invited to enhance your awareness of your soul in your physical body or in projections into your physical reality. If you are experiencing physical pain, then it is most likely there is a need to focus upon the embodiment of your soul into your physical body. You may or may not already feel the presence of your soul within your heart and emotions. However, there is a need to feel your soul tingling or vibrating within your physical body, allowing the soul to make necessary shifts and adjustments, through which greater embodiment will be experienced. If you are experiencing difficulties in your physical reality or your challenge is the manifestation of a situation in your everyday life, then you can recognise there is a need to express the soul working in harmony with the body to more fully anchor these sacred vibrations into your physical reality. This latter request symbolises that you have already integrated your soul with your physical body however the energies are not yet merging with your outer reality.

The greatest restriction to your soul’s expansion and embodiment is fear. While the soul can overcome and dissolve fear with ease. If fear has been ingrained and has created repeated energetic patterns which exists almost like programming within the body, then this is more challenging for the soul to dissolve because it requires a balanced focused between many aspects of your being. When fear has become a repeated pattern programmed within your physical body, mental body or emotional body then it can be released through repetition of spiritual practices to move through the layers of fear creating healing.

Many people upon the Earth are becoming frustrated as they feel their desired experience or outcome is not manifesting. This frustration is a part of the healing process between your soul and your physical body, and your soul and your physical reality. Your soul is required to first manifest into the physical body and then into the physical reality through the physical body. Your frustration is like the storm of chaos rising from within you. In a storm you would find shelter and rest, during your inner storm of chaos you are invited to find shelter in the love of your heart chakra, and to rest there. This is all that is required to bring everything into balance as well as to become aware of the integrated balance of the soul, your physical body and physical reality. Do you believe us, the Andromedans, that resting in your heart chakra is all that you are invited to achieve in this moment to heal yourself and reality? Your levels of belief may be low at this time. You may have tried so many different practices and yet nothing seems to support or help you in overcoming your hurdle. It may be that more than ever this hurdle feels impossible to overcome. We understand this as a process of moving into the evolution and embodiment of love. Never give up, although allow yourself to consciously find new pathways or perspectives to support you.

We, the Andromedans wish to share with you some insights to support you at this time:

First understand that your physical body is your soul’s companion. Therefore, your physical body wants to work in harmony with your soul and manifest into your physical reality. Fear is the major limitation of this occurring. We invite you to affirm, ‘My body is my soul’s companion.’ You may also add to the affirmation, ‘the harmony of my soul is experienced in my body.’ Secondly we wish for you to call us, the Andromedans, forth to rewire, repair and restore your physical body’s ability to receive the light, love, consciousness, healing and sacred vibrations of your soul with ease and perfection.

‘I invite the Andromedans forth to enhance my physical body’s ability to receive, experience and embody my soul. I invite the Andromedans to support my physical body in rewiring, reforming, restoring and repairing the divine flow of my soul into my physical body, so I may experience the manifestation of my soul within my physical body, resulting in the shifts and healing I desire. Now is the time for my healing and renewal. I open myself fully to experience the greater unification of my soul and physical body. Thank you.’

Thirdly, we wish for you to call upon us to rewire, repair and restore the flow of your soul and your physical body’s projection of your soul into your physical reality.

‘I invite the Andromedans to support the merging of my soul and physical body to cleanse, heal and enhance my physical body and soul’s harmonious expression of the truth of the Creator. May my desired experiences manifest into my physical reality and daily life now for me to experience with joy, delight and gratitude. I open myself fully to experience the greater unification of my soul and physical body in order to manifest my soul in my physical reality with beauty, abundance and bliss. Thank you.’

Fourthly, we invite you to call upon us, the Andromedans, to erase all fear, frustration, hopelessness, anger, lack, feeling unsupported and separated from the divine.

‘Andromedans, with your high vibrational light and consciousness, I invite you to move through my being erasing all fears that are hindering my reality, creating chaos within my being and daily life. My fear may manifest as frustration, hopelessness, anger, lack, feeling unsupported and separated from the divine. I honour the fear within me for being present. However I know it is time for my evolution and next ascension shift to take place. This is what I now lovingly command to take place with ease, perfection and the complete experience of love. And so it is. Thank you.’

With our light embracing you it will be as if the fear is drawn out of your being and dissolved in our light.

All of our practices will support you and guide you further into the experience of your light explosion within. However, know that the simplest of practices are also relevant such as remaining in your heart space, focusing upon love emanating from your being, even if you feel you are emanating your love against a storm which is trying to unfold you.

At this time your trust is being questioned because of all the energies anchoring into the Earth and evolving from within your being. You are being asked, ‘Do you trust in the power of the love within your being to heal or create anything you desire to experience?’ If you do trust, then the answer is easy. It is natural to not trust completely especially if you are not aware of any evidence of the power of the love of your soul and the Creator in your reality. However, we are all moving into a period where everyone does trust in love and love fulfils all.

We are present now to support your healing and to aid the next stage of your evolution which will begin with an explosion of light within you.

In compassion and love,

Andromedans

Sacred School of OmNa

Explosion of Light Within

By the Andromedans

Channelled through Natalie Glasson, 27 November 2015

Frequencies of light fill the air and atmosphere, penetrating through dimensions, form, matter and even other light vibrations. An explosion of light is moving through the atmosphere waiting to penetrate your being. It has no other purpose but to unite with the essence of humanity upon the Earth; the very core and constant energy of creation within humanity. Many of you can sense this light explosion nearing your being. Mirrors are appearing all around you. It may feel that everything that does not resonate with the light is protruding from your being, wishing to remain anchored within your being while also wanting to escape. This may create a chaos within you which will be experienced at different levels for each individual. In the past it has been through chaos that light has been born. Again you are moving into an experience of inner chaos awakening to bring forth and allow an explosion of light into your being.

Chaos doesn’t have to be something which you are fearful of or shy away from because it is seemingly not spiritual or to be enlightened when you experience chaos. However your reactions are the keys which allow you to move into a space of light within your being.

Can you experience chaos within your being without fear and with a reaction or response of love? This is what is being asked of you. Can you accept any forms of chaos within your being, experiencing and acknowledging chaos while not being attached or involved, eternally recognising that love is always present within your being and is stronger than any other energy within you? The chaos which is arising from within your being is beautiful. You may have already experienced it in the past few weeks, be experiencing it now or about to identify it within your being. It may feel all-consuming, familiar or simply a mild frustration and yet if you are willing to recognise the chaos with awareness and love you will accept and ignite an explosion of light within your being. A light which is the supreme love of the Creator and will intensify the supreme love of the Creator within you will explode within your being. It will fill every cell with light and create a powerful realignment encouraging balance, healing, further Creator consciousness awareness and resonance with the Creator. Imagine if all misalignments, blockages and limitations were dissolved and your entire being was free to reform itself into an awakened and aligned version of yourself. Physically we can describe this awakening by inviting you to contemplate that your back and spine were all out of alignment. You were hunched over and your spine was not straight and long at all. Then light exploded within your being and your spine and back moved into a perfect healthy alignment. You would feel free, able to move with greater ease and revitalised.

The waves of energy carrying this explosion of light are of supreme love and it is love which will awaken within you. The greatest experience will be of pure self-love beyond the interference of the ego. A simple experience of inner healing and remembrance. It is self-love which is the greatest tool to awaken your being, the Earth and humanity and so it is a light explosion of self-love which we, the Andromedans, are bringing forth to alter the reality you are experiencing upon the Earth. It is a tool of awakening which we are sharing with those who are willing to receive.

 As the light explosion draws nearer to your being its mirror effect will become intensified and so more and more energies from within which you may not wish to acknowledge will arise. The greatest feeling which will manifest within many will be of frustration, a feeling of frustration with your reality, that desired experiences and outcomes are simply not manifesting as you would wish them to. A feeling of frustration that you have been on your spiritual pathway long enough, and yet you feel you have not yet achieved what you desire. Even a feeling that the Earth, humanity and your reality isn’t changing fast enough into the love and light you so devotedly focus upon. Your key issues are coming up to greet you. That which you are dealing with and faced with now and in the coming weeks allow you to realise what your soul’s purpose of personal healing for your lifetime is. You may have experienced these issues even as a child such as unworthiness, lack, being manipulated, fear, inability to manifest, inability to recognise or accept the support of the Creator, disappointment, loneliness, anxiety, lack of self-love, self-harm or suffering, distrust, failure, stagnation and such alike. Any feelings which seemingly are disconnected from the Creator which are present within you now are directing you towards your life lessons and also your pathway to life fulfilment. These energies may choose to manifest physically or be projected from your being as quarrels with loved one, any form of lack within your reality or a disappointment. Know that these experiences are important, they are connected to the light explosion about to take place and it is essential for you to take notice as you can create soul shifts which you have been waiting lifetimes to experience. This can now take place and be fulfilled in this very moment.

The closer the light waves move into your awareness the deeper the purification process taking place will manifest. This is a time to focus upon the divine manifesting within your being. We, the Andromedans, invite you to visualise, sense or acknowledge the gentle yet intense light explosion flowing from the Creator through our beings into the core of your being. Imagine, sense or acknowledge the light building within your heart chakra, within every chakra and cell of your being, forming an intense beacon of light within you emanating widely and profoundly. Imagine often this beacon of light so intense and vibrant filled with the Creator, Andromedan light and the amplification of self-love. As you experience the light building you may notice your willingness or unwillingness to love yourself unconditionally which in truth is to recognise yourself as the Creator in truthful form. Focus upon your own self-love or simply allow it to blossom. Ask yourself, ‘how do I love myself unconditionally?’ Let the answers, guidance or sensations arise in response, allow yourself to be guided on your own personal journey of self-love. If you do not know how to love yourself or do not know how to practice self-love then now is the opportunity to guide yourself from the inner wealth of wisdom and sacred treasure within you. Please know that you are able to guide yourself easily and effortlessly to return to your natural existence of self-love.

With the experience of light amplifying within your being, self-love awakening and chaos diminishing there will be a moment when you are ready to experience the full awakening of light and self-love within your being. This awakening will be like a switch being turned on. It maybe momentary or it may expand generously and slowly into your being. It will be a light explosion which you will recognise and enjoy tremendously. Not only will the light explosion enhance your self-love you will discover that your gratitude for life, enthusiasm for experiencing life and positivity for the transition of humanity and the Earth stimulates and stirs, dramatically altering your perspective and truly enhancing your enjoyment of life upon the Earth.

In light of the ascension shift we are delivering to you we invite you to focus upon:

Observing the issues you are dealing with in your life at this moment, be aware of your frustrations, disappointments and lacks. Recognise that these are opportunities for fulfilment and the experience of self-love. Imagine, visualise, sense or acknowledge the light we are distributing to you flowing into your being and creating a beacon of light within you, which merges with and is intensified by your soul. Be aware that there will come a moment or an acknowledged slow integration which is like an explosion of light within your being creating many shifts and new perspectives. Know that you can call upon us, the Andromedans, whenever you require assistance, healing, understanding or support. A simple request or intention will allow us to divinely intervene. Finally, get ready to view your reality and the world from a greater perspective of love.

Many people will experience an explosion of light within their beings sometime from the 21st - 26th December 2015. Those who experience it during this time will either require the collective support of others achieving it at the same time to aid their activation or are supporting the collective in their experience. Those who do not require amplification from the collective consciousness of humanity will experience their light explosion with divine timing either before or after these dates.

We, the Andromedans, are present to remind you of your pristine light, love and consciousness, there are no limitations to your being or awareness.

We are light and love with you,

The Andromedans

Sacred School of OmNa

 

Life is mean (Greed)

The Tiger Lillies

Tina Packer in the 1968 Doctor Who episode 'The Web of Fear,' which was thought lost

The Fly

 

The Ballad of Sexual Dependency

The Tiger Lillies perform a live 42 minute soundtrack for the Ballad, one continuous piece of music that evolves and underscores the beauty, pain, joy, tragedy and sorrow of relationships and the startling images by Nan Goldin

2011

The Tiger Lillies:

Martyn Jacques – Lead Vocals, Accordeon, Guitar

Adrian Huge – Drums, Percussion, Backing-Vocals

Adrian Stout – Double Bass, Singing Saw, Theremin, Backing-Vocals

Christian Kolonovits – Piano, Organ

 Santo Martians

Santo Witches

Mostro

 

 

Seattle-based artist Dain Fagerholm

Creature Creature With Diamond Gem

Friends

Seven Headed Creature

Creature With Amethyst Gem (Gem Creature)

 

Asylum

Four Creatures in a Room

Crack of Doom

The Tiger Lillies

Just Jimmy and Aughra chillen, waiting for that walk signal

And so your life's been a success
And you have pleasure in excess
Don't worry it will all end soon

The crack of doom is coming soon
And so your future's looking bright
And you've reached the giddy heights
Don't worry it will soon end
It is all shallow and pretend
The crack of doom
Is coming soon
The crack of doom
Is coming soon
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
And so your life
Your life has failed
You've made the progress of a snail
Don't worry you'll get your revenge
For we're all equal in the end
The small and mighty all the same
This life a shallow, facile game
Where every empire turns to dust
And every ego will be crushed
The crack of doom
Is coming soon
The crack of doom
Is coming soon
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
ha-ha
And every dream, hope and desire
Is just a flicker in the fire
And that fire it will consume
The crack of doom
Is coming soon
The crack of doom is coming soon
The crack of doom is coming soon
The crack of doom is coming soon
The crack of doom is coming soon
The crack of doom is coming soon
The crack of doom is coming soon
The crack of doom is coming soon
The crack of doom
doom
Is coming soon 

Monsters

La Belle et la Bête by Jean Cocteau

Alan Wake (GMV) - Monsters (Switchblade Symphony)


Mindy (Pam Dawber): You know Dad maybe we've become too cynical. maybe we get what we expect out of people.
Mork (Robin Williams): There's an old Orkan phrase about that. If one cannot trust oneself, one cannot trust another.
Mindy: Aww. That's nice.
Mork: I'm not finished. If one cannot trust another then others cannot trust another and then others cannot trust others and, finally, who can one trust?
 Fred McConnell (Mindy's father played by Conrad Janis): Does everybody on Ork talk like that?
Mork: Well, we don't have sex. We've got to do something!
~ Mork and Mindy (Season 1, 'Mork the Gullible,' 1978).

  

"The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven." — John Milton, Paradise Lost.

La Belle et la Bête by Jean Cocteau

Sherilyn Fenn

Do Nothing

The Specials

Each Day I walk along this lonely street

Trying to find, find a future

New pair of shoes are on my feet

Cos' fashion is my only culture

Nothing ever change, oh no
Nothing ever change

People say to me just be yourself
It makes no sense to follow fashion
How could I be anybody else
I don't try, I've got no reason

Nothing ever change, oh no
Nothing ever change

I'm just living in a life without meaning
I walk and walk, do nothing
I'm just living in a life without feeling
I talk and talk, say nothing

Nothing ever change, oh no
Nothing ever change

I walk along this same old lonely street
Still trying to find, find a reason
Policeman comes and smacks me in the teeth
I don't complain, it's not my function

Nothing ever change, oh no
Nothing ever change

They're just living in a life without meaning
I walk and walk, do nothing
They're just playing in a life without thinking
They talk and talk, say nothing
I'm just living in a life without feeling
I walk and walk, I'm dreaming
I'm just living in a life without feeling
I talk and talk, say nothing
I'm just living in a life without meaning
I walk and walk, do nothing

Songwriters: GOLDING, LYNVAL
Publisher: Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, PLANGENT VISIONS MUSIC INC.

1980

Battle Beyond the Stars

Directed by Jimmy T. Murakami and produced by Roger Corman, 1980

Review

New Angels of Promise

New Angels of Promise
We despair
We are the dead dreams
We take the blame
Take us to the edge of time
Take us to the edge of time
We are the fabulous lovers
I'm a blind man and she's my eyes

[CHORUS]
Suspicious minds
You didn't feel us coming
In this lonely crowd, it's always time
[x2]

New Angels of Promise
we despise
Don't fall apart now
We are the silent ones
Take us to the edge of time
Take us to the edge of time
We are the tabular lovers
We listen to the storm

[CHORUS]

[On the Hours album, 1999]

Forgiveness is release!

By Saul

Channelled through John Smallman,  12 January 2016

The world, the illusory world in which humanity is dreaming a story that no longer appeals to it, appears to be descending into chaos.  What is happening is that you are becoming aware of the insanity of your so-called civilized lives as you burn through the planets non-renewable energy resources at a speed that is terrifying.  Your life styles, while seemingly moderate in their needs and expenditures, are at risk, and the chances that your children and grand children will be able to enjoy anything like a similar standard of living look increasingly unlikely.  You appear to be caught between a rock and a hard place as you so often euphemistically describe what appear to be insurmountable difficulties.

Maybe you comfort yourselves with the thoughts and the hopes that advances and new discoveries in technology will provide solutions to your innumerable problems.  And yet your doubts and anxieties at times overwhelm you, as you remember that historically empires and civilizations have always collapsed, even as you hope that this one will, at worst, just gently decay, allowing a new and improved social, political, and business environment to seamlessly replace the present unsustainable one relatively painlessly.

The bad news is that the old order, the old harshly competitive dog eat dog way of life, is on the verge of collapse.  However, the good news is that humanity is waking up to the unsustainability of constant conflict and planetary despoiliation, and in many places people are rising up to the challenge and taking the necessary steps to resolve conflict and reverse planetary damage through wise and thoughtful negotiation.  As a result those callous military leaders who have for eons chosen to engage in preemptive wars, and their counterparts in business and politics, and even some religious leaders, no longer have a following of admiring disciples ready to continue engaging in policies that can clearly be seen to be at best unwise and at worst totally insane.

Truly a sea change is underway as younger people, mostly aged forty or less, with what seems like extraordinarily wise heads on their seemingly young shoulders move into positions of power and influence.

Many of you have for decades been holding the Light and living kindly and compassionately, while forgiving those who have hurt or damaged you and holding the intent to refrain from judgment.  This has fortified your personal energy fields, the fields of Love in which every human is enfolded, and the upshot of those long held intentions is humanity’s collective decision to awaken.  It has probably seemed at times that your loving intentions were having very little effect, but in fact it is because of those constantly held intentions through the decades, without any positive feedback apart from your own inner knowing, that has brought you so close to your inevitable awakening.

'Moss' by Martin Fryer on Flickr

Those of you over sixty years old, when you look back to your youth and the cultural environment in which you grew up, can see that enormous strides that have been made in reaching out to and assisting those in need.  There is still quite a way to go, but progress to end poverty and all its associated ills is accelerating.  Very few now blame the impoverished for being impoverished, whereas previously it was common to blame the poor while assuming they were lazy, lacked determination, and therefore deserved to be living in straitened circumstances.  So, really, much has changed for the better in humanity’s attitudes towards one another, and awareness is growing that your survival on Earth depends on your willingness to support each other instead of imperiously judging and finding fault with each other.

The decision to awaken is solely humanity’s.  Many wise ones have incarnated over the eons to bring this fact to your attention, and they have succeeded.  You were created free, and our loving Source will never override your freedom.  However, as long as you chose to play your game of separation and attack others who you saw as wrong or different, you were effectively closing your hearts and hiding from the infinite Love that is constantly offering you the solace and comfort from within the center of your being that so many seek outside themselves.

Going within, quieting your mind, and intending to feel God’s Love for you is the way forward along your individual paths of spiritual evolution.  When you allow yourselves to know that you are divinely loved you enable yourselves to cease self-judgment, which is endemic, and start to forgive yourselves for all your faults and errors.  As you do so you quickly realize that there is nothing to forgive, that you were just unaware and that your seeming misbehaviors were but misguided attempts to find your way Home.

When you truly forgive yourselves, having looked at all the issues that were causing you so much pain, you will be able to accept what arises in your daily lives without fear or anxiety, and you will find yourselves easily forgiving those whom you have judged as wrong or who have hurt you.  You will recognize in them the pain you experienced yourselves and understand that they too are just seeking the way Home.

Forgiveness is release!  Forgiveness dissolves grudges and resentments and brings you peace, a peace you could not imagine achieving while holding on to grudges and resentments.  More and more of you are engaging with it and as you do so you are releasing humanity – one another – from the prison that not forgiving builds around you, a prison in which you were hiding in fear of freedom!  When you find yourselves free you forgive, and when you forgive you find that fear has dissolved and that you are truly at peace.

Go within daily to engage with the Love that dwells there in every moment.  The Love that you are seeking so desperately can only be found within.  That is where It resides waiting for you to acknowledge It and allow It to embrace you and fill you with joy and peace.  You know It is there but you have become fearful because you have judged yourselves harshly and feel unworthy and undeserving of Its warm embrace.  Dismiss those judgments.  I assure you that God’s Love for you remains undiminished, and that there is nothing you can do to change that.  All you can do is refuse to accept what is offered, and why would you do that when your acceptance will bring you only peace and joy.

With so very much love, Saul.

www.johnsmallman.wordpress.com/2016/01/12/forgiveness-is-release

Speaking Our Truth to Ourselves

Message from P'taah

Channelled through Jani King, January 2016

Q: P'taah, I've finally found a relationship where I can have the joy and freedom of complete satisfaction, but it's bringing up all my old fears of going back to relationships that weren't like that at all.

P'taah: Beloved, you are not the same person who had those relationships beforetime. And you will not draw into your life the same, we would say, personality facets of the people with whom you were in relationship beforetime. We are speaking of course of abusive control issues. You would not bring it forth now. That is not the frequency that you are.

Q: Nevertheless, I have brought into my life a very satisfying relationship, but one that brings up other very deep-seated fears.

P'taah: Indeed. It is almost as if the tables have turned and you are perceived to be the powerful one and the one in control.

Q: Yeah, and sometimes when we face our deepest fears - you know, I've embraced so many at a certain level, but when I get down to people talking about their real paranoias, their real natures, how they are when they are in love, or indeed, mental illness or something, these fears seem to go so much deeper than my ability just to embrace them somehow.

P'taah: They do, beloved, and you see, they are very deep and very powerful because they are issues that have never ever been addressed.

Q: For lifetimes.

P'taah: For lifetimes. Not one lifetime either.

Q: No, no, and I know how powerful the 'Baby Me' tool is as an embracement and the breathing into it when the fears come up and everything you describe as a transformation key. Nevertheless I still feel completely unable to embrace these and transform them at those deep levels and I know many other people feel the same. Could you talk on that a little bit?

P'taah: There are two things here. One is that there is nothing to fix.

Q: Okay.

P'taah: And the other is you can only deal with what is occurring in the Now moment. You see, you look at yourself and you say "Oh dear! There is still this huge morass of black roiling energy, of paranoia, of whatever it is, that has not been resolved." Then we say to you, in your day-to-day life, in your going about your usual activities, how is it? And the truth is it is very wondrous.

Q: It is.

P'taah: And so you find yourself in a relationship and the relationship brings up this and that. And it is only in that moment of recognition that you have a choice whether or not simply to go with whatever is going on or to shut down and to behave in the old patterning. 

You see, in a way, all of you have this idea of perfection, of how it should be. It's almost like what you would call a cardboard cut-out of what an Enlightened Being would look like. Well, there is no such thing. You are perfect Now. You are perfect even in your fears, in your desperation, in your addictions. You are perfect. You are Expressions of Source.

And where it is that you really yearn to be all that you can be, you understand that even in these places which seem to you to be so much less than perfect, that in fact there is nothing to fix. You can kind of relax into who you are without the judgment that you are not normal, or not as everybody else thinks you should be, or not fulfilling the pattern that has been laid down in your society of what a perfect person should look like. You understand?

Q: I do, but it's also about the pain of not being in a place of joy. It's not that it's not perfect. It's that something's not right because otherwise I wouldn't be in pain.

P'taah: Indeed, beloved. It's about judgment.

Q: Okay. Yeah, I can begin to see that.

P'taah: You see, the pain is about the judgment of you not being perfect. You may say, "Well, I do not consciously think about that, about being perfect," But you see, there is a kind of imprint, if you like, and all of you are terrified of being different from that imprint, that imprint of the collective consciousness.

Sometimes we say even that those who are on the spiritual journey suffer more from this because the ideal here is that you should be Enlightened Beings. And if you are not, then there is something wrong, something not perfect about you. So you see, it is a grand dichotomy where you are judging yourself always really to be not enough. And this, of course, creates pain and the resistance to this judgment creates pain. Does that make sense?

Q: Yes. I'll have to think on it more. I mean, for me, the personal issue is that I feel that I am being dishonest but my fear is keeping me being dishonest. And yet I am not comfortable in that because I feel I am not speaking my truth. And I can't quite equate that with having a judgment that I should speak it so much as it's just an innate feeling that I want to be so, you know...

P'taah: And so what would be the truth, beloved?

Q: I don't know. (Laughs) That I would speak my truth and not be scared to.

P'taah: You see, when you look at you, you see something very different than when I look at you.

Q: Yes, yes!

P'taah: And this judgment about the fear which you say rightly keeps you from being all that you can be, because that is the nature of humanity. However, what is most important is that you can speak the truth to you. You see?

Q: Yes.

P'taah: When you can speak the truth to you, you do not have to open your mouth.

Q: Oh, that's interesting. So you're saying that if we can speak the truth to ourselves, then who we are in that moment of being able to be truthful with ourselves shines through so strongly that people get it, even if we don't say it.

P'taah: Absolutely.

Q: Interesting. Thank you, P'taah!

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