Monstaville Book III. Chapter 14

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“It’s not about anger - it’s about peace. It’s not about power - it’s about grace. It’s not about knowing your enemy - it’s all about knowing yourself.”

- Monk With No Name (Yun-Fat Chow) in Bulletproof Monk (directed by Paul Hunter, 2003).

Pluto & Charon

Extra notes and items from December 2008 onwards.

“Yes, I guess you could say I am a loner, but I feel more lonely in a crowed room with boring people than I feel on my own.” - Henry Rollins.

Good manners were obligatory in the old repressive society. Now, the scales have tipped to the opposite extreme in the individualistic society which we currently share. Now, one selfish, rude and ignorant person is free to wreck the quality of life for everyone who is unfortunate enough to be in the same vicinity. It is no longer hardened criminals who show no remorse for making other people’s lives miserable. Collective discipline through fear, social rules and moral codes will eventually be replaced by individual self-love and greater awareness, both of which will lead to the truth that we are all One beyond the illusion of separation we have believed in for so long (and which those who exert control over our lives continue to promote).

I have found what appeared to be a safe (quiet) seat on public transport so many times only to be joined by some ‘lunatic’ talking on a mobile phone. For a start, I cannot comprehend anyone choosing a seat behind or in front of another passenger when there is ample space elsewhere. What lonely souls must they be. Not valuing their own space, they have no respect for that of other people. But, to be talking on a mobile (which is irritating itself, unlike an actual conversation between two people who are present, and which is often much louder) as well...I mean, just when did I sign on the dotted line to live in a lunatic asylum? (Or who had me committed?). Whereas unconscious, emotional dependence on the collective alienates true individuality, conscious unity is something to be celebrated because it involves consideration for other people as individuals in their own right.

Anger: “Don’t fight it, use it.”

I am no longer sure it is so wise to hold on to the tension which this behaviour causes. I often say something to relieve it, directly or to myself. It does not matter if they hear it or not. If someone walks alongside me in the street talking loudly on a mobile phone, yes, I would like them to know that they are disturbing my peace of mind. I have as much right to release the poison before it enters my system as they have a right to remain ignorant.

Eloheim teaches that we each have a 'list' of experiences our Soul wishes to have in order to grow. Many of these unresolved items have been carried forward from past lifetimes to this lifetime. Many of us have only a few items remaining on our lists. Some of these remaining items or 'lessons' can be very large and intense to deal with as they have been with us, unresolved, for many lifetimes.

‘Three Spiritual Decisions’ by Eloheim (channelled by Veronica Torres, 17 December 2008, www.eloheim.com).

“And now, all that is your responsibility is your choices and your reactions.” That’s your syllabus if you’re at the change in terrain place and have your direction sorted out, says Eloheim. That’s your ‘to do’ list. Use your spiritual free will to let habitual response stay in the past and “choose to live by inspiration and your reactions to situations you find yourself in by assuming the neutral position and allowing yourself to learn from everything that’s presented to you, taking complete ownership of what you see. That is 2009’s change in terrain. And, as you go about this journey, as you’re focused in this way, you’re serving others as you emanate higher and higher energetics to them...there’s plenty of Velcro and hooks for victimisation at this time [of economic crisis] and you, as lightworkers,  are being called to stay focused through this time, through this change in terrain. OK. So that’s really important for you all to know.”

“Wizards do not see forms of love as higher or lower - that is the language of judgement, and wizards don’t judge. ‘If your enemy walks past you and insults you,’ Merlin said, ‘that is an act of love. The impulse of love started in your enemy’s heart, only to be turned into hatred when it passed through the screen of memory. Your past experiences cause the impulse of love to become warped or twisted as it rises to the surface, but make no mistake, any expression would be loving if you could meet it at its source.’” - Deepak Chopra (The Way of the Wizard. 20 Spiritual Lessons For Creating The Life You Want, Rider, London, U.K., 1995, p.105).

"Remember to light the candle of joy daily and all the gloom will disappear from your life." - Djwhal Khul.

‘Defining High Vibration’ by Eloheim (channelled by Veronica Torres, 14 January 2009, www.eloheim.com).

“Conscious acts raise your vibrational rate. Being in a conscious frame of mind, even if you don’t like what you’re experiencing is the key to being a high-vibrational being in this world. It’s not, ‘Do I like it or not?’ It’s not, ‘Is it bad or good?’ as we’ve shared many times. It’s not, ‘Do I feel happy or sad?’ It’s ‘Am I conscious of whether I like it or not?’ ‘Am I conscious of whether I’m judging it bad or good? ‘Am I conscious about how I feel? It isn’t the action itself that has a vibrational level. It’s your interaction with the action, relationship, feeling, thought, emotion. It’s, ‘Am I aware of what’s going on in my body right now? Am I aware of the triggers that are arising? Am I clear as to why I’m behaving in the way I’m behaving? Am I looking? Am I asking for this moment to show me more than what the surface level is revealing? Or, what I’m being shown as I just react from judgement and triggers. Judgements and triggers from the past shape your current time, your current experience, tell you what today is unless you intervene with consciousness to give a fresh look at what you’re experiencing. And that’s really what we’re asking of you, to take that fresh look at what you’re experiencing so that you can see what your current vibrational level reveals about this experience, not ‘what my vibrational level of my childhood reveals about this experience.’ And you’re letting go of all judgements based on a person’s lifetime that’s still in the same body, the lifetime when you existed at a completely different vibratory rate.”

Eloheim mentions that, as 2009 arrived, we “moved into a higher vibrational stance” and we might not be aware of the new options available to us. This new energetic of ours is “offering to you many, many, many opportunities for exploring the world in a different way. And, we’re inviting you to keep your eyes open by being conscious of the experience that’s occurring. That’s the gateway to these new levels of experience. You have to start with consciousness. Now, a big challenge comes when you’re asked to be conscious about triggers, when you’re asked to be conscious about your core emotion. Because, there’s another layer you have access to now. It’s not just enough to say, ‘Oh, that’s my core emotion. It requires you to say, ‘That’s my core emotion and this is actually how it’s being pulled into this moment and acting on what I’m experiencing now. There’s a deeper level of revelation available to you but you are the one who has to use free will to choose to explore it. So, the question becomes, ‘Is (blank) high vibrational?’ And the answer is, ‘Are you conscious about (blank)? Then it can be.’”

“Let feelings bring about events, not the contrary.” - In Praise of Love (Éloge de L'amour, directed by Jean Luc Godard, 2001).

Eloheim also explains that this process needs to be explored with consciousness. We should ask ourselves why we’re doing what we’re doing. Is it what you want, what’s best, and so on, because “…everything can be explored. Everything can teach you…it’s important to ask the questions and do the exploration so you get the learning…Are you asking, ‘What is this teaching me?’ and not just saying, ‘Oh, it’s teaching me not to be judgemental.’ Okay, ‘Why am I being judgemental? Where do these judgements come from? What are they based on? What age do I think this judgement entered my life? Is it still a valid judgement? Have I reconsidered it recently? Asking those questions doesn’t require a lot of time and it’s going to add so much to this incarnation for you because it’s going to give you that texture…to your life that has not been present on a consistent basis.”

I would like to mention here that, during the first few months of 2009 (and earlier), several ‘ascension’ tools came to my attention which have been invaluable to my spiritual practice, understanding and growth, enabling me to move forward (transiting Pluto having FINALLY moved on from my Moon as well, although it is hanging around till the end of the year). I came across this enlightening video during a week when a similar channelling appeared on the Internet and, from about 6 March, I was also finding myself experiencing what I can only describe as ‘enhanced awareness,’ a new sensory appreciation for everything in the now for what it is, for its existence, noticing my environment and, well, I guess loving pretty much everything around me, particularly at home but also out and about to some degree, and even feeling a sense of gratitude, as though rediscovering all the good things in my life, and in the world. And, Bashar’s wisdom reminded me that everything is happening for a reason. It’s all part of the process of self-discovery and needs to be recognised as such.

Dr. Dick Solomon (John Lithgow): [After the bell goes off and his class is leaving the room] Oh, er, tomorrow, I want you all to write a paper for me about ‘feelings.’ Tell me how it feels to use only 10% of your brain.”

- Third Rock from the Sun (Series 1, Episode 1, ‘Brains and Eggs,’ written and created by Bonnie and Terry Turner, 1996).

As for the ongoing neighbour conflict and financial struggles, it doesn’t feel as though I am resisting or opposing them so much anymore, like I am making peace with my ordeals. I’m in a different space, basically, and I feel that it relates to the accelerated energies on Earth now. In other words, I am starting to have a more positive outlook on life, but that still includes taking positive action if necessary to prevent people from walking all over me. And my neighbours, well, they just believe they can do whatever they like. Yes they can, but if their actions are insensitive an inconsiderate, and not in harmony with life, they may have to face the consequences as well. But they go on and on, proudly and arrogantly, stubbornly, violently, immaturely, ignorantly. It’s sad but kind of comical at the same time. It feels like the old world living adjacent to the new world, the Dark Ages beside the promise of the Golden Age of Light.

“To seek out your own inner Peace is the greatest gift you could ever hope to give to this world.”- Eric Walton.

I still need to take temporary measures to combat their attitude, however, to evoke restraint (even if it only lasts for one day) and no longer hesitate to act if they’re driving me crazy. I just get on with it, make my presence felt and don’t let it get to me for too long. They never learn (or they enjoy perpetuating war/winding me up) but I feel that I accept the situation a bit more now. They don’t like to feel that other people – or people who are different from them - count. It’s a kind of superiority complex. And I need to be reminded to acknowledge and express my emotions, to let them out instead of bottling them up. A pruning and purging process has been going on within me on an unconscious level, perhaps like a blocked water pipe that needed to be cleared to relieve the pressure and ensure an improved flow in the future. At least there is a possibility that I am starting to exit a very long, dark tunnel, a tunnel which, really, has always existed in some shape or form as a manifestation of my unconscious itself.

“One can never consent to creep when one feels an impulse to soar.” - Helen Keller.

Cluster by Bexelbee

We are all in a chrysalis state in some way. Some people cling fearfully to the caterpillar state of superficiality, conformity and mediocrity. Others find themselves thrust into the darkness of despair and believe that life is just Hell! Now, with our planet in a new energy, the dark night of the soul need not be so long and drawn out. Humanity is graduating from the plane of learning and the road to freedom is being illumined so we can see where we are going. We can now emerge into the daylight of expanded self-awareness more quickly through accelerated experience and self-awakening. Negative emotions can now be transformed more easily since the energies of love and joy, as well as creative expression, are more accessible (and supported) than ever before. Higher vibrations abound. They’re there. It is now more a matter of intention than anything else. Hold on to the steering wheel and drive…and don’t forget to breathe (deeply).

"When you go through the dark night of the soul, you let go of all the old securities that structured your faith or gave shape to hope. You surrender to the assumption that what brought us into being is far bigger than we can ever comprehend." - Joanna Macy.

Another reason for being a kind of ‘Eastern monk in East London’ is probably that increasing one’s consciousness can make it difficult to come down from the mountain and rejoin the world of lower vibrations. So, this way, I am perpetually learning to adjust, to carry my energy amidst lower frequencies. It’s a wobbly ride, with much stumbling, but the result is greater flexibility and understanding of how to retain one’s centre and maintain some semblance of harmony in spite of the discord around oneself, including the negativity being projected in one’s direction. Karen Bishop explains this quite well when she suggests that Ascension symptoms mimic menopause! People are becoming more sensitive as they attune to the higher frequencies:

‘The Separation of the Worlds’ by Karen Bishop (Extract from ‘Wings’ post, 25 February 2009, www.emergingearthangels.com/latest.html).

“With this extreme chasm now present from one reality (or dimension) to another, our reactions then, are extreme as well. The gap is now quite large. When we are in the lower dimensions, or lower and denser vibrations, we can feel absolutely horrible. Very horrible. This can manifest as great anger, pain, frustration, tension, and a real grumpy attitude. And then quite suddenly, we can encounter something that vibrates higher and we can immediately feel happy, right, blissful, and in a naturally good space.

                From one extreme to another, we may begin to wonder what in the world is going on within us. And with a near zero tolerance for anything that vibrates lower, we may find that we do not like ourselves much as our reactions to these vibrations are creating unpleasant feelings within us...

                Ascension has always mimicked menopause in both men and women of all ages...Short tempers, memory loss, a need for self- care, and a desire to move on are simply a part of our spiritual evolutionary process at this current stage, even if these things do indeed mimic menopause.

                Feelings of tightness, pressure, and short fuses are also common symptoms as when we migrate higher, the energies become tight because anything that vibrates lower within us needs to be ‘squeezed out’ in order that we become aligned. We may feel as though there is now much more energy flowing within us, we may feel like we are hyperventilating, having pressure in the chest, perhaps feeling like we just got hit with a quadruple shot of caffeine, or may even have difficulty sleeping as so much energy is now flowing through us. In this way, ‘alignments’ do not always feel great. After the energies are squeezed out and adjustments are made, we always feel better…at least until our next phase of expansion! The higher the evolutionary space we occupy, the less lower vibrating energies there are present. This is because love is the ultimate energy that remains. Thus, we lose more and more of ourselves as things progress, resulting in a need to adjust or we become grossly uncomfortable.”

An increase in inner Light, even where it remains unconscious, is likely to intensify the patterns of the personality. In astrology, the planets represent the various modes of consciousness. The inner and outer energies of our make-up are vibrating more intensely and when the planets representing them are aspected by transiting planets, they are likely to be activated more dramatically through personal expression and external events. Gradually, the Light pushing against the door from our very cells will become more and more conscious. The Light peers through the cracks of the walls as negative energies and emotions are released and we become more sensitive and caring, moving, I guess, from lower 4D to higher 4D. It is, however, all a response to increased energy from the reactivated 5D Light body whether we move consciously into it or not. It means our evolution is being speeded up, basically.

“We have explained in prior Circle of Grace text that your dense etheric being is really comprised of four entwined (PEMS) layers, not just the physical person you see in the mirror. Your physical core is surrounded by your emotional body, then the mental body, and then your spiritual body - like a set of wooden nesting Russian dolls (chuckles)! All four levels must be cleared and balanced for your life to flow in harmony...

                What is luck? Luck is merely being prepared when an opportunity presents itself. Indeed, preparedness is what makes manifestation happen! What drives synchronicity? A clear connection between a person in 4D with their Higher Self in 5D (i.e. in the non-physical realms). We explained earlier that your dense etheric body is comprised of your PEMS layers. That is your physical core surrounded by your aura, or specifically the first three energetic layers of your aura. So where does your Higher Self fit in? Well, the word ‘higher’ is misleading because it implies a direction - up - away from you. That very concept of separation from, or being lower than God, has retarded spiritual growth on this planet for thousands of years!

                Your Higher Self is your auric (i.e. non-physical) parts wrapped around your physical core. Once you clear away your internal pressures of (physical) blockages and (energetic) baggage, you will be in clear contact with your total energetic being, just as clearly as your current level of awareness connects you to your physical core...

                Once you fully clear that negative pattern vibration from your PEMS layers, the universe will respond in kind - with something better! Remember to add the phrase ‘or something better’ after all of your spoken prayers, to give the angels leave to manifest for you what lies beyond your own imagination. Yes, beloved reader, you are only limited by your own imagination! Think about that for a moment, please. We have asked you to be very specific in what you focus on manifesting, the more detail the better. But - anything is possible! Sometimes you get stuck imagining only one or two avenues to a specific outcome. When you add, ‘...or something better,’ you leave a window open for Spirit to bring in that which is for your highest and best good. If you prefer, imagine that it gives your angels something to do!”
by."

- The Brotherhood of Light (‘All Is As It Should Be,’ channelled by Edna G. Frankel, 13 June 2009,  www.lightworkers.org/channeling/79300/all-is-as-it-should-be and www.beyondreiki.com).  

La Vigilanta

"The union (or unity) of consideration and compassion, of truth and clarity, will bring much healing to your planet in the next few years. Yes, the rising energies will allow no less! Do not despair at all the darkness you see, understand that it requires more Light to make new dark things come into view. Take responsibility for what is, rather than blaming each other for what or how it happened. Release your old habits of guilt, blame and shame, and instead look for ways to make things better! How? You have a saying that is very appropriate: Sharing the load lightens the burdens!

Dear lightworkers, support each other, work on each other often, and remember to take time to enjoy each other! As the planetary vibrations intensify, all the old emotional baggage that was invisible in your former 3D lives will become more and more obvious. You will begin to feel your auric 'density' in new ways as your senses expand...

We have counselled you to clean up your lives, inside and out, from your homes to your jobs to your relationships. The longer you resist change, the harder the lessons the Universe will send you. There is no time left for dismissal, denial, or delay. The more time speeds up, the faster your lessons will manifest, and the more intense life's dramas will grow. Don't let things pile up until the piles start falling on you! That is simply the difference between taking charge of your life and letting the events of your life take charge of you.

Dear ones, have you realised by now that your exterior life mirrors your interior life? Yes, many people are falling ill, and so quickly! All imbalances are rising to the surface in order to be cleared. In some cases, your quest for health will cause you to change your lives for the better. In other cases, harmonising your outer lives - home, work, and relationships - will improve your health. Don't be afraid to make changes, and don't let fear rule your decisions! Some people work so hard to stay in place that they forfeit the opportunity to manifest positive changes. Always remember, dear reader, that fear blocks anything and everything. Fear will block you from making choices, taking chances and making any forward progress. Fear of getting ill will make you ill! Yes, you create what you focus on. Don't get caught up in avoiding life, for it will surely pass you by."
-  The Brotherhood of Light ('Communion & the Millennium Shift,' channelled by Edna G. Frankel, 30 September 2009, www.spiritlibrary.com/the‑circle‑of‑grace/communion‑the‑millennium‑shift and www.beyondreiki.com).

"Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength." - Arnold Schwarzenegger (www.quotelady.com/subjects/strength.html).

The Warrior’s Prayer by Stuart Wilde

I am what I am.
In having faith in the beauty within me I develop trust.
In softness I have strength.
In silence I walk with the gods.
In peace I understand myself and the world.
In conflict I walk away.
In detachment I am free.
In respecting all living things I respect myself.
In dedication I honour the courage within me.
In eternity I have compassion for the nature of all things.
In love I unconditionally accept the evolution of others.
In freedom I have power.
In my individuality I express the God-Force within me.
In service I give of what I have become.
I am what I am:
Eternal, immortal, universal, and infinite.
And so be it.

“The Light-bearers and wayshowers who chose to be here to engage with It [Love] and assist in bringing humanity to the point of awakening.” - Saul (channelled through John Smallman, ‘Your hearts are vast spaces into which endless joy is about to flow,’ 10 July 2013,

www.johnsmallman.wordpress.com/2013/07/10/your-hearts-are-vast-spaces-into-which-endless-joy-is-about-to-flow).

“God is always joking. Look at your own life - it is a joke! Look at other people’s lives, and you will find jokes and jokes and jokes. Seriousness is illness; seriousness has nothing spiritual about it. Spirituality is laughter; spirituality is joy; spirituality is fun.” - Osho.