Arrr! See CONTENTS for links to the 125 chapters of The Monstaville Memoirs plus introductions, conclusions, postscripts and appendices. This treasure trove also includes a collection of articles offering further insights into the themes explored in the trilogy. Namely, managing suffering and conflict (dealing with hostile people if you are nervous, sensitive or shy) and learning not to react
MotherShip by Sam Wise ___ PLEASE REFRESH PAGE FOR WEB FONTS
Thursday, 9 October 2014
Monstaville Book II. Chapter 30
Barrymore): “Let me tell you something...you will spend your lives trying to
figure out how to put others down because it makes you feel more important. Why
her?...Find out who you are - and try not to be afraid of it. Excuse me.”
Been Kissed, directed by Raja Gosnell, 1999).
Through his self-disgust, Pigsy
thinks I will judge and reject him even before I have. He believes it is in me
and tried to bring it out so he can attack it, but the poison is the
self-hatred inside himself. He assumes that I am weak and abusive like he is,
even though I have not acted on it yet, so he feels justified in attacking me,
to push, to bring it out and resolve the issue (that is, of his own inner
tension). [Retrospective note: As I learned later, this was also a trigger that
I had called to myself on some level in order to help release my own fears and
blocked emotions from previous lifetimes].
That’s why he has never actually
harmed me or started a fight by throwing the first punch. He wants me to react
first so he can justify his violence. He believes there is aggression somewhere
inside me and he finds it a threat. I’m sure he feels this way about most men
but the ones who would soon kick his ass if he pushed their buttons he fears
and therefore ‘respects.’ That is, he’s a bully and will only act on this
instinct towards men he is confident of beating in a fight if it came to it. He
is convinced that I want to attack him and if I do not I must be a baby because
if there is any violence in me it should be unleashed...and then he can see
that you are just like him and he will consequently feel satisfied. His fear of
the unknown, that you are anything more special than he is, will subside.
He has his vices and couldn’t bear
someone looking down on him. I think that, deep down, he respects me and that
is why he cannot attack me. He wants to prove that I am just as fucked up as he
is but if he succeeds in getting the reaction he is looking for then he will
realise fully that I am just as savage and pathetic as he is. Then he will
respect me as much as he respects himself, on every level. Perhaps he would
just feel permanently justified in doing anything, taking his anger out on me
verbally or physically without restraint. The fire does not blaze; the fight
does not get off the ground.
[See Appendix VIII for some belated wisdom
from Mother Mary in regard to understanding and helping people who seek to
cause harm to others].
throws salt at thee thou wilt receive no harm unless thou hast sore places.” -
“Most of your reactions are echoes from the past. You do not really live in the present.” - Gaelic Proverb.
“There are times in life when I
really, really wish that people like The Equaliser, or the folks on Leverage existed in this world, and that
they were on my side. Or that I could conjure up Machiavelli, ply him
with food and wine, and get some sound advice on how to deal with nasty
people. Sometimes, I feel like I was raised amongst Hobbits in The
Shire. I need a cunning mastermind to help me navigate some of the perils
of society.” – Madam Chow (Madam Chow’s Kitchen, www.mzkitchen.com/?p=1015).
I have always thought that some
people could sense unconsciously my own aggressive actions, or violence, in
previous lifetimes. Yet, that person, or those people, is no longer who I am.
Imagine a great warrior like Musashi,
famous Samurai warrior, who is aggressive as a youngster and wins every fight
throughout his life, like it’s just too easy for him. Yet, as he grows older he
grows more relaxed and contemplative, takes up painting and appreciates peace.
Musashi, although he is also one of Japan’s most famous painters,
remained enthusiastic about the art of war right to the end, as far as I know.
Imagine a warrior, however, who becomes a wise and gentle elder in his later
years and is challenged by a wild young warrior trying to prove something,
hungry for power and disdainful towards tradition and the respect and
self-control that it confers for the good of the community. The elder no longer
operates on the same fiery, savage level. His life may be in danger without
protection from the social order which recognises his status and authority; or
he may employ wisdom and strategy to defend himself. He is not interested in
‘winning’ or killing his challenger. He only wishes to diffuse the problem.
First, he may try reasoning with his younger brother and, last, he may kill his
opponent if absolutely necessary for his own survival and the preservation of
those around him and their way of life.
The selfish, hot-blooded rebel is so
sure of himself without having the perspective that results from learning and
experience. He may even have made a deal with the enemy with the aim of
usurping the seat of power (replacing accomplished individuality with the lower
animal self). Hopefully, he will learn a valuable lesson from his mistake while
the elder may have grown likewise through the test of his wisdom and strength.
One is charging up the hill, fuelled and encouraged by his natural energy and
vigour which also generate pride. The other is strolling meditatively down the
other side, observing the beauty and pondering the meaning all around him as
well as assessing his feelings and delighting in this newfound source of
self-awareness, this inner world that he often failed to notice in his active
past. They happen to meet. Either the thug mows his spectre down in the form of
the old man or the latter sees his protagonist coming and moves silently to one
side ready to stand his ground and deal with the challenge, not with a sharp
sword, but with gentle consciousness.
“What other people think of you is
none of your business.” – Unknown.
I am Me, I am Free
by David Icke
(Bridge of Love Publications, Cambridge, U.K., 1996).
p.89. I thought I was just unlucky.
I wasn’t. I was creating it by attracting to me what I feared. We need to do
this to overcome our fears, otherwise our potential is severely limited and, in
the area related to the fear, our evolution comes to a halt. I remember, too,
that when I began to love and respect myself for what I am, I began to attract
around me more and more people who love and respect me for what I am and not
for what they would like me to be. You don’t like your friends? Change yourself
and your friends will either change in their attitude towards you or they will
move out of your life and others will emerge to reflect your new sense of you.
Everything that happens in your life you are creating...The subconscious
considers the book [speaking of the way we are magnetised to certain books]
helpful to the reawakening of its conscious level and so it drops the hint in a
physical way. Whatever we need, we draw to us.
p.126-127. The same applies when
people attack us or hurl abuse at us. We can take on their problem or leave
them to deal with it. If they have a problem with us, that’s exactly the
situation. They have a problem. It
only becomes our problem if we choose to get hooked in and be offended by what
they say or do. When we react negatively to someone who offends or hurts us, we
are making a two-way magnetic connection with them. We become hooked into their
vibe. Their problem is now ours. We are playing on their negative playing
field, on their terms, and by their rules. When we choose not to be offended or
hurt, there is no magnetic connection and so we don’t take on another’s problem
or create a problem that isn’t really there.
p.151-152. Go to the focus of your
bitterness, look him, her, them, in the eye and say how much you love them and
you want the conflict to subside. How they wish to react to that offer is up to
them, but you have ended the conflict because conflict cannot exist without two
sides full of bitterness for each other. If you no longer project bitterness
the conflict must end because love and bitterness are never in conflict. They
cannot be because love is without judgement, bitterness, guilt or resentment -
the very fires that make conflict possible.
“If we could assure you of anything, it would be that you are well looked
after, and well cared for in many dimensions and that everything you are
experiencing is in divine and perfect order. Chaos is merely a reflection of
reorder, and reorder is the order of the day! All of life on this planet at
this time are undergoing an arduous restructuring process...from the very cells
that make up your human biology to the governing systems of every nation. This
includes those who join you in the conscious brigade and those who do
not...Hold steadfast to your inner knowing that all strife will soon dissipate
under the magnificent light of new creation. The world around you will continue
to crumble in many divine ways but you, benevolent ones, will remain securely
fastened to the foundation of new earth should you choose to see life through
the eyes of divinity. Be at peace knowing that you are fully protected and
supported through this and every change. All that is love is of divine order
and all that is in divine order would be impossible to destroy. Eventually, all
arrive at truth. All this you already deeply know. We are the Sirian High
Council applauding your endurance in the face of adversity and already
celebrating your success. Stay centred in your knowing despite all external
appearances. In the blink of an eye, a new day dawns!”- The Sirian High Council
(channelled through Lauren C. Gorgo, ‘The Merging of Soul Partnerships,’ 12 May
Card #9: ’Trust in the
Divine Plan, bless it and bless the Divine Order inherent in every person and
you trust in the Divine Plan you are moving into the universal flow of good.
You are acknowledging that there is an underlying energy within all
things. This is the energy of God, and it is part of the Divine Plan for
all beings to live in harmony, love and abundance. You can trust this.
When you bless the Divine Order
inherent in every person and every situation, it increases the spiritual energy
flowing through whatever you are focused upon. Blessing brings more love
to the person or situation, which brings an immediate improvement.
Order exists as the underlying truth within all beings and all
situations. It is a powerful affirmation for life and can be used as a
mantra to remind you of the greater truth within all circumstances. This
means repeating the words ‘divine order’ to settle your mind, and to bring you
peace. When you don’t know what to do, claim ‘divine order’ and your mind
will align with this powerful reality. Divine Order is being in perfect
alignment with God on every level of your being. Remembering Divine Order, and
proclaiming it, assists the energy around you to fall into perfect alignment.
These very simple steps of trusting,
blessing and remembering can bring you peace of mind in upsetting
situations. The more often you remember, the stronger you
become. Your inner sense of peace will become unshakable because you have
aligned yourself with the ultimate truth at all times. Remember your
message from the Angels today.
“Trust in the Divine Plan, bless it and bless the Divine Order inherent in every person and every situation.’”
hurt others will also hurt themselves.” - Natsuki Takaya.
right of course, I have learned that reaction just keeps us stuck in a limited
ego identity like animals whereas our true being is light and love and dwells
within and beyond the heart and that is the path to inner happiness whereas
reaction pulls us out into the outer world which is a holographic illusion and
keeps us stuck in the Matrix as-it-were. And I guess maybe I have had enough
suffering and want out if I can accomplish such a feat. Worth a try anyway! Haha.
Of course I have been fortunate enough to have had some encouragement from
spiritual sources beyond this plane of consciousness we call the world. If that
makes sense! But then I'm older and one has to grow wiser sooner or later
(although many don't!).” – Antraeus de Herschia (from a message to a friend, 15
“Learn what is to be taken seriously
and laugh at the rest.” - Goethe in Steppenwolf
by Hermann Hesse (1927).