Monstaville Book III. Appendix VIII

Appendix VIII

“Whenever you feel some deeply painful emotion such as fear, sadness, unworthiness or shame, instead of thinking that you must get rid of these feeling, become your own Angel. Say to yourself, ‘It is perfectly okay to feel this sadness, this fear, this rejection.’ It is in feeling these emotions that I am transmuting these energies for myself and all of humanity by holding them in unconditional love. And feel the sense of wholeness and peace that comes from this process.” - Elizabeth Anne Hill.

Emotions (extract from Bringers of the Dawn. Teachings of the Pleiadians by Barbara Marciniak, Bear & Company, Inc., Santa Fe, New Mexico, U.S., 1992, p.151-154).

Many of you don’t want to go beyond these emotional barriers and through your personal boundaries because it might be painful. You’d like to say ‘abracadabra’ and just have them be gone. Pain brings you feeling. If you can feel in no other way, sometimes, in order to capture your attention as a stubborn human, you create pain to show yourself the range of your abilities and to bring yourself into life. In this way, you can feel the richness of being alive.

                Most human beings are afraid of their emotional or feeling centre; they are afraid to feel. Trust your feelings no matter what they are. Trust that they lead you to something and that the way you feel can bring you a realisation. You all want to be in life and be removed from it at the same time. You say, ‘Let me just be here and be a powerful person, but I don’t want to feel or participate too much because it hurts too much and then I will get sucked down. I don’t trust life.’

                When you are not afraid of feeling, and you move past judgement and allow yourself to feel all the ways you feel, you will have a tremendous breakthrough because you will be able to ride feeling into other realities. Some of you are afraid to feel and participate in this reality, let alone ride into other realities, because you do not trust your feelings. If you wish to have an acceleration, dive into something that brings up feeling. Stop skirting the issue so that you can think you are in control. Dive in the middle of it and then see if you are in control.

                It’s not that you don’t know how to feel, it’s that you are afraid of your feelings. You don’t know what to do with them when you have them. They bring up a sense of powerlessness within you, so you associate feeling with a sense of powerlessness within you, so you associate feeling with a sense of, ‘Oh, no, I blew it.’ You have a boundary in your belief system that states that when something comes up that is emotional and brings pain or anger, then it is not good. It is time to stop tiptoeing around things and avoiding your emotions.

                Anger serves a purpose. All of you want to get finished with it: you want to sweep it under the rug and act as if it is no good. You act like it is rotten vegetables, throw it out, and bury it in the back garden as if there is no purpose to anger. If you would allow yourselves to express and experience your fears, which might lead to the expression of your anger, you would learn something. Those of you who want desperately to avoid fear and anger, and who are really afraid of these feelings, have something great to learn through these emotions. They are techniques that move you beyond your personal boundaries of identity and behaviour, and you are simply afraid to experience this.

                Most of the time, all you want is to be accepted. You feel that no one will like you if you do certain things or feel certain ways, so you don’t give yourself permission to have those certain feelings. That is where the anger comes from. You have anger because you make judgements about what you can and cannot do. If you do not give yourself permission to feel, you cannot learn. Feeling connects you with life.

                Feelings serve a variety of purposes in human beings. We encourage all of you to please trust and cultivate and rely on your feelings. Understand that your feelings are your ticket into multidimensional realities, where you must go if you are seriously playing this game. In multidimensional realities, you learn to hold and focus many different versions of yourself at once. Feelings can take you to these places, particularly feelings that you trust. Many of you are very suspicious and masterful over your feelings. You will not allow certain feelings to come forward, or you judge them when they come up instead of observing where they take you or what they do for you.

                Because you have a fear of something, you keep yourself from experiencing it because you put up a wall that says, ‘If I go there, it is bad.’ You put the brakes on. In actuality, your fear will eventually energise the experience into your realm of development because all thought is drawn into form based on the emotional influence behind it. So sometimes the greatest thing to do is to simply say, ‘What the heck, I will go there. I surrender.’ Then deal with being there and don’t worry about being centred while you are in your feeling centre. If you intend to go into your feeling centre and always be in control, you are not giving yourself the range of movement that is needed to ride the emotions that knock down boundaries and belief systems.

                Anger has its purpose. Anger is not purposeless and pain is not purposeless. They all lead you to something. You can make an intention to go into your feeling centre and learn how to be centred there while you explore the opportunities. If you say, ‘I am going to be centred there,’ it sounds as if you won’t allow yourself any movement within it. Instead, just intend to have a centredness. A centredness does not mean that things don’t fluctuate; it means that you allow things to fluctuate. Whether a boat is ready to tip over or is in calm water, you allow it. You ride it, then you get out of the event either a calm ride or a rough ride. Your emotions are not just food for others, they are food for the self. This is how you nourish yourself and create your identity. This is your identity as frequency through your emotions. Emotions feed you and feed your call letters into existence.

                You are going to deal with each of your boundaries, simply because that is what you do not want to do. You would love to say, ‘Golden stardust, eliminate all that has limited me. Boom! I am free.’ Ideally, it would be so simple. That is a classic example of wanting to recircuit and bypass the feeling centre. You have certain emotional beliefs or feelings that assist in making these boundaries outside of yourself, so when you break a boundary, you have to deal with the emotion that put the boundary there in the first place. Through your emotional body you are connected to your spiritual body. You may want to bypass something that is difficult, yet you have to feel your way through it.

                You want to sweep difficult things under the rug and say, ‘I don’t want to do these,’ when the difficult things are your gemstones. Even if you discover you have 101,000 boundaries, do not feel frustrated. Simply say, ‘This is interesting.’ Look at the boundaries you have set up and, instead of swearing at them, simply observe them and see if you can discover how they came about. See what purpose they served – what grocery store you shopped in when you bought those items.

                As soon as you acknowledge and recognise and are willing to release something, it moves. When you cling or have fear or think, ‘I like that boundary; that serves me very well,’ then you limit yourself.

                You must learn to love your emotions.

[This chapter in Bringers of the Dawn, for me, is the ‘Emotion Bible.’ I highly recommend reading the whole chapter].