Arrr! See CONTENTS for links to the 125 chapters of The Monstaville Memoirs plus introductions, conclusions, postscripts and appendices. This treasure trove also includes a collection of articles offering further insights into the themes explored in the trilogy. Namely, managing suffering and conflict (dealing with hostile people if you are nervous, sensitive or shy) and learning not to react
MotherShip by Sam Wise ___ PLEASE REFRESH PAGE FOR WEB FONTS
Thursday, 20 November 2014
Monstaville Book II. Chapter 41
“God does not send us despair in order to kill
us; he sends it in order to awaken us to new life.”
- Hermann Hesse.
directed by Lisa Krueger, 2000).
Grampy (the wise old shaman) visits
Joline in a mental hospital:
Grampy (Alfonso Arau): It’s time for you
to leave this place so catch your breath and let’s go.
Joline (Heather Graham): I can’t. Don’t
you know what I did?...Then you know I’m just, I’m too sick to live out there.
Grampy: Maybe you were not sick enough.
Maybe you needed a little poison in you to live among the rest of us and not
get killed. You have a very rare power. It’s not that you were not powerful
before but coming back from the dead will generally increase a person’s power
by three times; sometimes even four. I guess you could use it here but it seems
kind of limited. It’ll be kind of stingy of you.
(Jo leaves the hospital).
The film begins with Joline being
jilted (she was due to be married to Carl) and is herself committed to the
venture. Towards the end (in a voice-over), she says:
“I’m still a committed person. I
found out I have a knack for it. Some people just do. And if they didn’t take
things to certain extremes how would they ever know for sure? How would they
ever know what they’re made of...where they stand? How would they know where
anybody else stands? It would be a mystery.”
Heather Graham and Goran Visnjic in Committed
note with date:
22 April 2006.
Angel Cards: Courage and Power.
I’ve learned that if they retaliate
pathetically or it doesn’t affect you, don’t respond. Make them think they’ve
got you so bad you won’t do anything more, just lie down and lose. Wait a day
or two, then respond. That way, they may try their new technique for a while.
You won’t be affected. Then again, all I did today - my last day off - was hit
the punch-bag three times (just one punch) and slammed the pan on the stove.
“Fear is met and destroyed with
courage.” - James F. Bell.
Self-mastery: You are noticing that
a completed identity and active will (like the Sun) means you have made a
solid, permanent agreement, a decision, a stance. No longer accept any assault
from others or tolerate aggressive attitudes on any level. You have become
dangerous. You don’t have to do anything. People who wish me harm in any way -
things happen to them in relation to me. Their antagonism or other negative or
deceptive intent backfires. I don’t do anything consciously, but I know why it
has occurred and I can show that if I choose. It works in an intimate
environment at least. This is a permanent direction, or stance, of conscious
will. It is an enduring realisation born of so many conflicts. But, if there is
a threat that gets past that barrier, then you have to apply your will
actively. Get out of the way and/or defend yourself. Use positive affirmations
or send energy, whatever. However, perhaps this is a crude reflection of the
masters’ power. That is, they have a permanent state of complete being which
includes conscious principles, conclusions and concrete intention. Yet, rather
than rejecting people, they positively wish for the person to grow and find
lasting happiness and fulfilment. Thus, people are affected by the power of
this intention, transformed by their presence, be they friendly or hostile.
Things happen because they radiate the power of full self-realisation, complete
“In the arena of human life the
honours and rewards fall to those who show their good qualities in action...I
count him braver who overcomes his desires than him who conquers his enemies;
for the hardest victory is the victory over self." - Aristotle.
The spirit needs opposition because
it is able to express itself through our positive responses. Not taking
reactionary action but growing positively in comparison to other people
behaving irresponsibly and ridiculously - so clearly confused and lost to
illusion that it makes your inner reality appear all the more compelling.
“I have pursued my apprenticeship
for sixty-four years. During these years, many, many times I have gone to the
mountains alone. Yes, I have endured much suffering during my life. Yet to
learn to see, to learn to hear, you must do this - go into the wilderness
alone. For it is not I who teach you the ways of the gods. Such things are
learned only in solitude.
you have the desire to learn the path of the shaman, the Fire will teach you,
the Fire, Our Grandfather. You must listen to the Fire, for the Fire speaks,
and the Fire teaches. And during the day, you learn from the Sun. The Sun will
teach you, the Sun, Our Father. This is always best done with hicuri, peyote. From peyote comes forth
Káuyumari, the Little Deer Spirit ally, and he will communicate that which you
must learn. Káuyumari emerges like a mirror an shows you what you must do. The
Little Deer knows. All the gods communicate with Káuyumari, and he teaches
Matsúwa, Huichol shaman, Mesoamerica (Shamanic
Voices. A survey of Visionary Narratives by Joan Halifax, Arkana, London,
U.K., 1979, p.250).
“Even hope may seem but futile, when
with troubles you're beset,
But remember you are facing
just what other men have met.”
- Edgar A. Guest (from the poem ‘See It
Meditation of the Day - 24
"...in Tunkashila, there is no
time. Everything moves in the blink of an eye. It's as fast as thought. So
there is no speed there. There is no time in between." - Wallace Black
“There is a relationship between
thought and reality. Every thought is alive, and as soon as you think it a
result occurs immediately. However, to make something happen it may take a
series of 1,000 thoughts before you can actually see it with your eyes. This
occurs because the Laws of the Great Spirit act immediately. When you tell a
lie, you immediately experience fear. When you tell the truth, you immediately
experience freedom. To the Creator, there is no time. For us to experience the
meaning of this requires us to act on faith. Faith is belief without evidence...
Great Spirit, today, let me act on
Looking not back in anger or forward
in fear, but around in awareness...”
in your illusory reality is extremely confusing for you as there are so many
conflicting rules and beliefs which of course are also illusory. You can choose
to attempt to live a totally egoic self-centred life, a life of total service,
or a combination of the two, and that too is illusory. Nothing happens, nothing
is going on, it is all make-believe. Yes, it is very convincing make-believe as
your bodies experience cold and heat, hunger and thirst, pain and suffering,
emotional upheaval, attack, betrayal, and finally abandonment into death.
God is infinite all-encompassing
unconditional Love, Who’s only Will is your infinite happiness. You believe in
Him and you believe the illusion is real. Surely you must be able to understand
that that is completely insane? How could your infinitely loving Father create
such an unrelentingly hostile environment, deposit you in it, then withdraw,
and, from a distance, spend time (also part of the illusion!) observing your
suffering, listening to your anguished prayers, and imperiously demanding and
HELLO! God is Love, and He Is All
That Exists! The reality that you, as sentient beings in human form, are
experiencing cannot possibly be anything other than the most cruel and sadistic
nightmare; it is in fact an imaginary concept that you have dreamt into
existence for your own diversion or amusement. Even the shortest period spent
in rational thought considering your situation must convince you of its
unreality, of the total impossibility of such an existence. Many of you have
simply turned the logic upside down, and believe the illusion is real but that
there is no God. It certainly makes much more sense than believing that the
illusion is real and that God demands that you live in it, pay Him obeisance
and offer Him sacrifices.
It truly is time for you to wake up
and release yourselves from your nonsensical illusion, so that you may once
more delight in the wonder of Heaven, your eternal home. In order to awaken you
have to detach yourselves from the beliefs, the emotions, and the concepts that
anchor you there - that you are unworthy sinners; that you have been unfairly
treated; that others deserve punishment and that you deserve recompense - and
from the myriad other complaints and judgments to which you are clinging so
God loves each and every one of you
because you are His perfect children living with Him in perfect harmony,
forever. As long as you see any of your brothers or sisters as unworthy of your
love, as unforgivable, or as superior or inferior beings, you are making
judgments that are not yours to make. In the illusion your vision is severely
clouded by these antagonistic attitudes which prevent you from seeing the
perfection and beauty that is your sister or brother, and which is also a
reflection of you. God and all that He creates is absolutely perfect, so you,
as God’s Creations, must be perfect. The sins, the imperfections that you see
in yourselves and others just do not exist except in your tiny and insane
imaginations where you focus almost all of your attention.
It is essential that you very
consciously intend to see in every sentient being the divine beauty that is
eternally present within them. Look for that loving spark within them and
expect to find it, and seek it and find it within yourselves where it is always
present. Your failure to see it is due to the unnatural and misguided attention
you pay to the non-existent but fascinating distractions that you keep
imagining you can see in the illusion that you have made. Let them go. Attend
to the divine spark in yourselves and others, and prepare to awaken into the
Glory that is God.
With so very much love, Saul.
these are emotionally turbulent times for many of us. We’re being challenged in
so many different ways during these times. And sometimes we get really down
about things not going our way. One of the excerpts from my book, Miraculii. Song of Ascension, is, ‘It is
wise not to despise it. Use the dung to fertilise it. For, life’s greatest
connoisseur gets the best crops form the best manure. And, I encourage you to
be in the realisation that, when things don’t seem to be going your way, then
it really is fertiliser. You know, fertiliser’s basically waste material. It’s
dung. And, you can take this waste material and put it on the soil and get the
richest crops. You know, not in spite of
the waste, but because of the waste.
The waste has a way of offering something to the fruitfulness of life. If we
can remember that when things are difficult, when things are challenging, then
we’ll be able to take that challenging situation and have it become serving
unto us rather than master over us.“ - Astarius
Miraculii (May 2011, www.astarius.com).
“There is a
saying in Tibetan, ‘Tragedy should be utilised as a source of strength.’ No
matter what sort of difficulties, how painful experience is, if we lose our
hope, that’s our real disaster.” - Dalai Lama.
“As a boy Wdenty used to laugh at
the Sioux dancing around the fire, waving tomahawks, singing to banish evil. He
used to laugh because they looked funny - they were all too serious. Laughter
is a great power, a great healer, a great protection. Humourise. Laugh!” (Note
from attending a trance sitting on 1 October 1988 by Wdenty, a Sioux Indian
whose last life (birth) was in 1704).