Thursday, 15 October 2015

Monstaville Book III. Chapter 23


“Wayshowers, you come to bring peace and prosperity, to enlighten the masses of humanity and to channel the crystal light on behalf of Divine Source. This is the time of purification and Lightworkers come forth to channel the waves of truth into manifestation. When you receive a thought of darkness and fear and it reaches your being feel the touch of the Goddess to comfort you. Her will is strong and all here are her children. With her will and guidance send the Crystal Light to teach your brother or sister ethics and fairness. Send this light on her behalf to the temple of their third eye so that they will be enlightened by the radiance and send her powerful voice from deep within her belly to speak to their spirits and direct them to feel oneness. Release her energy to ground them to the highest will of the divine for all we are is all that is.”
(Excerpt from a GoldRing YouTube video posted by rysa5, 23 October 2009, ‘GoldRing Crystal Sword of Illumination ‑ 2010 Awakening the Family of Light,’

It is not really the events or the motives of my neighbours that are important here. This is all about psychological and spiritual growth on my part, training the mind and learning to deal with negative situations by turning within and tapping into one’s inner resources (as opposed to caving in or falling down a black hole). It is also about clearing tension, coping, developing and drawing on inner strength (and compassion) and winning through Light, love and true power as a being of divinely majestic worth rather than yielding  to fear, violence, insanity or depression.

It does seem ‘bizarrely coincidental’ that three days after El Phaba had read my letter, which included an accusation that the family next door are selfish, they spat venomous, viciously furious ‘coughs’ in my direction charged with vibrations of hate and nastiness the like of which I have never known before. They did this for a week or so but, on the first occasion (which was particularly acerbic), I was meditating with the three Ascension Angels and I could feel the venom (see ‘Archangels of Ascension Integration,’ channelled by Natalie Glasson, 6 April 2009, if you’re interested in this powerful ascension tool. Alternatively, you can find it in the Ascension Tools wiki on my website). It was an interesting experience because the power of the angels cocooned and protected me from the hateful energies coming to me. Consequently, I did not absorb any of it or have to say or do anything to deflect it. Indeed, this is when the next-door neighbours resumed their fake coughing. At first, it was every evening and more sporadic after that. At least the venom was diluted after the first week making it more bearable!

In my letter, I had mentioned that I had hoped our friendship, or at least the harmony between us, would help to reinforce the positive energies and peace in this place and, potentially, have a positive effect on the next-door neighbours. During the spell when El Phaba was quiet this summer, the son (who is probably visiting more while Ha Chu is in Pakistan) said ‘hello’ to me with an apparent look of friendly ‘sympathy’ over the wall while I was practicing taiji on 30 April (2009). Not long afterwards, he offered to cut my side of the hedge, which is something I used to offer them before things got really out of hand.

I have observed that all this noise caused by El Phaba wearing shoes upstairs appears to coincide with the periods during which her boyfriend=s job takes him away for several weeks at a time. Then she tends to be quiet again, perhaps more careful and respectful. Perhaps just more civilised. Perhaps, when she=s on her own for those periods, she runs wild and does not feel the need to care so much - not necessarily about the effect she=s having on her neighbour, but just generally. Whether it=s about displaying power, or other issues, or whatever, it has to do with love in the heart, about self-love, I believe. Or her mindset changes to >I can do whatever I want= when her boyfriend=s away. As though, because she would never wear shoes indoors when her boyfriend visits (being a Muslim), she develops the habit of not wearing them at other times as well. And then, when he=s away, she feels free or becomes lazy and does not give so much consideration to what she is doing. She does not care if those habits are good for her. They are convenient, immediately self-gratifying. So, with her heart and mind having much less exercise and her emotions no longer responding to the man in her life, perhaps she stops caring altogether. Perhaps she doesn=t care about herself enough or perhaps this is one of the way in which she indulges herself during these times. Either way, she is not living as consciously and lovingly. Therefore, while she might be vaguely aware that it is more neighbourly not to wear shoes in a first-floor flat when she is in a more caring mood, the rest of the time the thought might either not occur to her or she is in selfish mode and, consequently, shuts her conscience out. [Retrospective note: Oddly, El Fabala=s boyfriend was ‘away’ from March to mid-November this time].

"If life feels like an emotional roller coaster, become the observer of how you feel. Develop the practice of naming your feelings. When you can name your feeling, it will be easier to tame. Once you know what it is, you can be more objective, and from a place of more sanity, do some inquiry to determine underlying factors. You can inquire within, for example, to discover whether what you are feeling is triggered by another person, the world in general, or by your own storehouse of unhappy memories. Knowing the source and becoming more neutral, it will be easier for you to avoid acting on emotions. In this way, you can avoid creating harm to others and yourself." - The Council of 12 (channelled through Selacia, 'Navigating the Eclipse Cycle With Skilful Means,' 7 July 2009,‑the‑eclipse‑cycle‑with‑skillful‑means).

One of the covers I use for Xianxian’s cushion is a black bandana bearing multiple skull and crossbones motifs. It is cotton and therefore comfortable whilst also being the perfect size and easy to wipe the hairs from using a little water. Another thing that occurred during the letter/avalanche period was that I also purchased a Jolly Roger flag on Ebay as a cover for my cat=s cushion. I had originally (after he had ‘adopted’ me!) named him >Crossbones= on account of his black fur and white snout, beard and boots. I changed it to >Xianxian= because I was studying mandarin at the time and happened to stumble upon this word (xian here meaning >living a leisurely life=). I thought that the flag would just be a small version for children to play with at home but it=s a full-size, full-on pirate flag! Anyway, my cat didn’t like it for some reason, probably because it also turned out to be made of waterproof nylon since I always make sure he has a cotton cover. It is healthier and I try to avoid synthetic materials in my own clothing if possible. It would have been easier to clean than all the other covers I use. No such luck. He decided to sleep elsewhere! I left it there for a few days but he’d check it out and then go and sleep in the closet again. As soon as I replaced it with the old cotton bandana he was back in his favourite place by the window again. So I was ‘stuck’ with this cool pirate flag.

Once I had removed the flag it seemed such a waste not to use it for something else. Then I had a brainwave. All it would require would be drilling two holes in the bamboo pole in the garden around which I practice bagua circle walking and I could fly the Jolly Roger. I could not resist the idea anyway so the adventure began and I fixed it to the pole using some blue nylon rope I had in a drawer somewhere; the kind one imagines fishermen using. It was a fun flag. However, it did occur to me as I was struggling to pull the rope through the holes in the bamboo that the woman upstairs might believe that I was sending a direct statement to her since it was only a couple of days beforehand that I had written to ask if she would mind not walking around in shoes upstairs. And she was reacting aggressively and making more noise than ever. I countered this possibility by reasoning that she was supposedly moving out soon anyway so I figured it was of no consequence. I believed that at the time because she said she was moving. Equally, I know it was just harmless fun and totally unrelated to anyone else and I figured that, being clairvoyant and whatnot, it was easily within her grasp to understand that this was not a deliberate act of revenge or something.

Call me na├»ve or short-sighted (I prefer ‘innocent’) but, once the flag was up and flying around impressively in the wind, it gradually dawned on me that probably all of my neighbours hated it. Particularly because, being Muslim, they are not too keen on visual depictions of living (or dead!) beings. The porch on the front of each house in my area is decorated in Victorian style with a vintage head (alternating male and female). Soon after the Bengali family moved in, Ha Chu Wali set about demolishing the face above his porch, leaving an ugly and sinister-looking mess in its stead. These faces are purely for decoration and I think they look cool (even though my one looks a bit sterner than most). They=re hardly religious icons or anything but, earlier this year, the guy on the other side decided to do likewise only he spent a long time on the project (he seemed to be up the ladders for an hour or so each day for a good couple of weeks) in order to do a proper job. The result is neat and faceless as opposed to looking literally like a face that has been completely bashed in, brutally hacked and battered to death! I would not be at all surprised if I had something to do with this sudden radicalisation although he has been running as a local councillor in a local Muslim political party for the past few years (not getting anywhere though, thank God).

“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.” - Rumi.

Although I wondered if El Phaba might take offense to a pirate flag waving around in the garden below (on windy days), I had not accounted for the potential reaction from the next-door neighbours. I had no idea that it would affect them in any way and, besides, it is not terribly visible from their side of the wall. It can be seen between the two apple trees and also from Maltesers’ bedroom window. I did not see the connection between the appearance of this skull and crossbones in my garden and the >labour of love= (or hate) in which Ha Chu had engaged prior to jaunting off to Pakistan for the Summer: that is, the total disfiguration of the noble lady=s (alabaster?) head above their porch. It=s kind of funny...all that=s left now is a skull! Even that is offensive to Muslims like my neighbours, apparently. Indeed, I expect the effect is much worse since, without having delved deep enough to fathom the positive meaning of this symbol, they are likely to regard it as a statement of malicious intent (I read somewhere that, traditionally, it symbolises ‘honour’). Dipping one=s toes into the river of British culture is not really going to bring out the beauty and wisdom of this symbol. In other words, in their eyes, not only is this a forbidden icon but also a demonic one at that! [Retrospective note: No doubt, since returning from his long sojourn in Pakistan, Ha Chu has been incensed that, having invested so many hours and so much hard work into obliterating the porch head, he now has this inaccessible eyesore to contend with]. [1]

In retrospect, then, it is no surprise that, in his temporary role as man-of-the-house, the son, who was also spending some time at his parents’ house each day (in a protective capacity more than anything I expect), called round a week later. He was cutting the hedge that divides their driveway and my front garden and offered to trim my side. At first glance, this seemed to be an act of magnanimity and reconciliation from someone intent on keeping the peace rather than engaging in any kind of one-upmanship (proud and self-important though I know him to be). In fact, as it turned out, far from being an act of generosity, it masked a cunning and selfish plan for >revenge.= I responded to his (fake) humble demeanour and kind gesture with innocent (naive) warmth. I was wearing my >love= badge which I=m sure he must have noticed too - as did El Phaba when she came down to tell me that it is simply her right to stomp around in shoes in her flat with no sympathy whatsoever for the tenant below). Indeed, those kinds of people both of these people - are nice to your face but devilish and/or cold-hearted creatures at other times and act on their ill intentions. For all I know, they are in cahoots regarding each and every negative action directed towards me anyway.

I told my good neighbour not to worry about my side of the hedge. I would cut it myself as always. The offer was unexpected and felt somewhat unbelievable, even absurd, seeing that, although I myself used to offer to cut their side of the hedge sometimes during the first few years of living here (and was happy to do for them), they have never offered me anything whatsoever (well, notwithstanding their rubbish and harassment!). I am glad that I responded in such a way because it turned out that he was cutting the hedge in order to make space for a monstrous signpost advertising double-glazing for a small firm round the corner. He erected it at the end of the hedge next to the pavement directly in my view as I look out of the window from my desk! It was a big ugly thing, a white board bearing a badly-designed advert in red and navy blue print. At first, I figured I would not allow such a trifle as an unpleasant view affect my quality of life but, of course, I was facing it pretty much all day long and the irritation could not be endured indefinitely. I put up with it for about a week I think and then decided to cover it up with one of the curtains instead of opening it fully. It blocked out a little more sunlight but not enough to affect me. It was a relief to have found a solution to this little problem. The sign only lasted a few weeks, in fact. Yes, the board came loose. At first, it was slanted at a forty-five degree angle or thereabouts and then, not long after, it fell off the post completely. I celebrated this hilarious event with a few laughs and a deep feeling of relief; not that it was such a big deal anymore, but I had, by then, realised that this was a deliberately provocative answer to my pirate flag by the new head-of-the-house.

By the way, I strongly believe that the Ascended Masters caused the sign to drop and I also suspect they had something to do with the Mosque phone call because I attended a St. Germain event on that following Saturday and he declared that everyone present had had someone behaving provocatively towards them that week. This is the only incident I could think of that fitted the description even though I didn’t find it to be a particularly challenging experience (but then perhaps it would be hard to beat coping with my neighbours every day!). Nevertheless, my neighbour must have thought he had successfully gotten on up on me in some fashion and, presumably, believes that I fell for the whole thing and don’t know he is behind it! People who take themselves too seriously are seriously funny! They can only laugh at others’ expense and they have to put someone down and feel that they have been humiliated so that they themselves can feed their pride and somehow feel better about themselves for as long as the taste of power lasts. It can be addictive in patriarchal societies as history attests.

8 and 9 June. Next-door neighbours and El Phaba both very noisy (for example, El Phaba came home at 9.50 p.m. on the 9th, slammed the front door loudly and walked around heavily in shoes for about 20 minutes. At the same time, the neighbours’ TV was turned up loud). Does that mean they’re working together or is it the result of the recent full moon – stirring the accelerated energies, pushing people’s emotional bodies to release negative emotions? These are people whose hearts are EMPTY! These are people who can’t resist the temptation to take their shit out on someone who is in a seemingly helpless position. And yes I feel like a powerful dragon stuck in shallow waters where it is attacked by pesky little shrimp! Talking to myself: ‘You’re living in this crazy world, man. You just don’t see nothin’. You just don’t know shit. Like, what’s caused me to live here, specifically, and why? And do the neighbours know each other and why are they so nasty?’

Claire Bennett (Hayden Pannettiere): Paranoid? No, this is a pattern.
- Heroes (Season 4; the pattern, it turns out, is the result of the spitefully disruptive machinations of an invisible troublemaker no less).

10 June. Eerie! 1.12 a.m. El Phaba came home early, arriving just a few seconds before the neighbours’ son pulled in their driveway in his 4x4 (his father is away so he’s spending a lot of time there).

Extra loose note. I have been making an effort, striving to love unconditionally – in addition to coping, that is! This itself has been a worthwhile journey of contemplation. Moreover, I realise now that I was on to something when I concluded that love is the answer. It is simply that I was not feeling the fullness of love that is the spirit and which makes me feel so happy as to not be bothered by anything or anyone, no matter what. To be truly happy is to be unaffected by anything. It is an ideal of self-mastery which takes many lifetimes to achieve. Now, however, there is an opportunity for all to accelerate that growth and exit the tunnel of karma and limitation. To live and dance in the Light - the Light within. For, it is that which remains undisturbed, untouched by the selfish behaviour and animosity of others. The flame rises tall and spreads its light and warmth while the sparks fly around it simply dancing to their own chaotic tune. It might be in their nature to try to bring the flame of God down so they can feel tall and proud. They cannot help themselves. Yet, the flame shines from within as an expression, or extension of the Source. Its beingness and its love have such depth and power. The sparks, by comparison, are like children playing. Shallow and immature, they are in training for when they eventually grow up spiritually and also discover the true meaning of love and inner happiness.

11 June. Sometime during the afternoon, I received a cold call from a young Asian guy who told me he was from the Council (even though he had to ask for my post code and repeated it incorrectly later in the conversation and did not find or have my address when I asked him to send me the details). Initially, he asked me if I could spare one minute of my time but the conversation took several minutes and he seemed to have all day to spend on this, frankly.  Actually, he said he would pass my request on to his ‘manager’ who would post the information to me. So, anyway, this was a prank call and I never received the information in the post from the ‘Council.’ I intuited as much from the guy’s attitude but I was never totally sure and just responded to his questions freely and honestly. The caller informed me there had been a proposal to build a ‘religious centre’ in my local area capable of holding 12,000 people! He said it was part of a survey and asked if I would agree to such a proposal – to which I replied, ‘No way!’ I added that it sounded like a small stadium to me at the time (I have since learned that Whitechapel mosque holds about 10,000 people so this would have been very large for where I live). [Retrospective note: I have also realised that my neighbours find it difficult to believe there are any English people who do not go to Church! They still expect everyone to be like them, stuck in the past and ruled by tradition, to subscribe to one religion or another because they identify with their own to the degree that they cannot really relate to anyone who doesn’t. For them, it is an affront to their pride because they like to think (or feel) that they live in their own little home-from-home version of Pakistan. They ignore everything else here and put up with what they are unable to deny because they are obliged to acknowledge it on some level.]

He asked how I thought it might affect traffic and I said it was already congested. He then asked me what my ethnicity was and what my religion was. I told him that, being English, I did not have a ‘religion’! Finally, he asked me if I would have any objection to a small religious centre being built nearby which was a strange question since there are already plenty of churches and mosques around here [Retrospective note: Several months later I had a little revelation that this was all related to the fact that a brand new American ‘Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints’ had not long been built down the road from me. I believe this must have aggravated people like my neighbours and that this was an opportunity to take some of that annoyance out on an English person without having to speak to him face-to-face. I can imagine Ha Chu and son discussing strategies for attacking me down at the local mosque. Either there or, more likely, at their minicab office when it is quiet during the middle of the night! And, perhaps one of their colleagues came up with this because he had already contemplated it. Who knows, perhaps thousands of Pakistanis in the area had daydreamed about such a thing at some point over the past year or two as the church was being built!] I said it depends on what they want to knock down to make room for it. Like, if they intended to destroy a green area such as a park then no. He added, would I mind if more shops and houses were built instead. However, he then changed the subject instead of waiting for an answer (as though someone was pushing him to wrap the conversation up), asking about my post code again (which, as I said, he got wrong).

El Phaba came home at 7.30 p.m. and walked around in shoes briefly at some point. I mention this because it was the first time she had done this for a while. It could have been because she heard me in the bathroom upon her arrival. She knows it affects me now. I did intuit previously that she had stopped making a racket after a few months (each time) because she gave up. It seemed to have no effect on me because I did not react at all.

Smile and think, >There is always a good reason to smile.=

13 June. [I had decided to replace the pond I made several years ago with a vegetable plot]. Early evening. I mixed compost into the soil and planted French marigolds (which I’d found at a discounted price somewhere) to protect the vegetable seeds from bugs (not realising that slugs and snails love to dine on marigolds!). El Phaba’s window was open as usual and she let out an evil, phony laugh. Then, a few minutes later, the next-door neighbours played Asian music in their rear chalet-thing. So, I believe that Fabby may have informed them I was gardening. That’s how it looks. So, she’s taken to laughing at me through the open window when I’m outside – as if a square person laughing falsely at me is going to have any effect on me! What she’s doing, essentially, is laughing at herself because she is too scared to acknowledge that she needs to be more like me! More free! Haha.

“If you care about what other people think, you will always be their prisoner.” – James Frey.

"Life is thickly sown with thorns, and I know no other remedy than to pass quickly through them. The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is their power to harm us." - Voltaire.

Extra notes (summary, if you will).

“Think about it: what weakens us is feeling offended by the deeds and misdeeds of our fellow men. Our self-importance requires that we spend most of our lives offended by someone.” - Carlos Castaneda.

Actions speak louder than words. My understanding is that it is entirely intentional. That’s all I really wished to know. If you say one thing and do another you give the game away providing the other person doesn’t get attached to the web spun by your reassuring words: fall under your spell and fall for the con. I guess I wanted El Phaba to make a choice, to choose between Light and dark. I pushed her to reveal her true colours in other words. She was deliberately and aggressively loud after encountering me. By her actions, she revealed that she is behaving exactly as I had intuited and insinuated. Any vague suggestion that she was deliberately trying to disturb me was going to be the trigger for her showing ‘offence’ and upping the ante. The sleeper awakens to become much more of a participant in the macabre plot.

You have every right to be as selfish as you like in the third dimension – if you wish to remain stuck there. You wouldn’t be free to be so selfish in the fifth dimension because it is a world of Light, a band of Reality where Oneness requires that the Law of One (Divine Will) be observed, that all that occurs for each one be for the good of all (indeed, it is beyond ‘law;’ it is simply the natural intelligence and harmony of the Creator, of All-That-Is).

Another pattern I’ve noticed is that the day after I have found it necessary to put the radio on in the kitchen to deter the neighbours, El Phaba stomps around in shoes more than ever. What the synchronicity means I have no idea but it is a pattern I have observed repeatedly.

I don’t know what to believe. There just seem to be too many coincidences. And, since I spoke to El Phaba the people next door started coughing loudly every day again. Some people are nice when they talk - they’re friendly to your face – but they could be quite destructive behind the scenes. It’s important to be aware of this fact because certain people are masters of deception in this way, quite charming indeed on the surface. A charming mask appears to be an essential accessory for people with deep insecurities and malevolent intentions.

Take your hatred out on me
make your victim my head
you never ever believed in me
I am your tourniquet
- Marilyn Manson (chorus from the song ‘Tourniquet,’ written by Marilyn Manson, 1997).

After I had told El Phaba about the book I am writing and after referring to the Atishoo family as ‘selfish’ I was the target of hateful ‘coughs’ charged with emotional poison. I believe that she does know the neighbours because I overheard her answer the big mouth who is a friend or relative of theirs. The actual family next door have never spoken to her in my presence and she has always made it clear during conversation with me that she does not know them. She was brought up round the corner where her family still live and twenty to thirty years ago the two families must have been among the first to move into the area. The fathers must surely know each other through the local mosque. That guy sounded like he know her, like he was talking to someone with whom he is used to conversing. He did not understand that it was not safe to talk openly in the street, I feel, ‘just in case’ (I could be standing right at the window doing something, for instance!). Fabala did not say anything more than ‘Oh, is he?’ when he informed her I was playing loud music while she was out because she’s much smarter than he is and has no intention of being found out. She’s getting on with her job while he’s just an amused and conceited spectator. I guess he could just be dumb enough to say that to a stranger because he was enduring my loud music and knew she would have a problem with it too if she was still on when she was home. He may not have realised that, on this occasion, I played loud music on a weekend day because I was close to the front door and could hear, if not see, El Phaba arriving home. Personally, I think he is just too ignorant to have considered the possibility that he might be overheard. He doesn’t live there, so he is not really aware of the delicate nature of the situation. No one is unless they experience it first hand by living here.

El Phaba is something of a ‘witch’ and wants me to know it if only for the potential fear factor alone. After assuring me that her stomping around in shoes is not intentional her face bore the same smirk as when she informed me that some psychics can view what you’re doing remotely from another room or place. She added, ‘Not that I would do that.’ I’m pretty sure that the warnings that she is going to move out are issued because she is psychic and knows I am wary of the landlord deciding to sell the house. She told me she has walk-ins or something she can’t explain but it is negative entities entering her and taking over to some degree. She was vague when she described it.

Creepy! In other words, I guess, whether or not this is true, she has direct contact with negative entities in the astral planes. I believe it is at least possible that the neighbours got her to rent the flat above me so they would have an ally there. When I did her horoscope I was somewhat reticent because she told me the time of birth she had come in a dream and she was adamant that it was the actual time. She was going to do a psychic reading for me in exchange. I reminded her of this a couple of times in the hallway and she said she was too tired but promised to do it another time. After that, the promise of a reading may have been her reason for not wanting another tea and chat. She could not afford for the veil of deceit to be lifted even slightly. Three fears she hopes will affect me: black bodybuilding drug dealers, remote viewing and the threat of her moving out.

It has occurred to me that St. Germain’s recommendation that I dance to a favourite track naked each day might possibly relate to this remote viewing inference! If El Phaba can indeed ‘see’ where I am and what I’m doing psychically then, playing loud music is sure to get her attention and dancing naked like a crazy lunatic will give her something to look at!! Particularly if she is still in bed and in a semi-conscious state. In fact, this notion occurred to me whilst dancing to a song called ‘One Hundred Years’ by The Cure one morning. It happens to be the first track on the album titled Pornography! St. Germain told me that they (the Ascended Masters) know I have a good heart and also that I opened the door for them to help me with my life. Consequently, they were attempting to assist me a bit during the period when I received this advice.

Well, I wouldn’t be able to find out if Fabala did know the next-door neighbours in secret. That’s the whole point of a secret! 

Minuit Machine - Trauma

The Astral Agitation Agenda

[Special Agent Cooper sits with the dwarf in the Red Room of the Black Lodge]
The Man From Another Place
(Michael J. Anderson): [Talking backwards; subtitled] When you see me again, it won't be me.
[Steps on an insect on the floor]
The Man From Another Place: This is the waiting room. Would you like some coffee? Some of your friends are here.
[Laura Palmer appears and sits beside the dwarf]
Laura Palmer
(Sheryl Lee): Hello, Agent Cooper.
[Laura winks and snaps her fingers backwards]
Laura Palmer: I'll see you again in 25 years. Meanwhile...
- Twin Peaks (Season 2, Episode 22, directed by David Lynch, 1990).

AWe are your formidable friends who carry the plan for Man and will ensure it is completed according to God=s Will. We are like your Guardian Angels, so close to you at all times and watching over you. You have an advantage over the dark ones because we play by the rules and attract the higher energies and forces. The dark so often cannot agree amongst them and this is their Achilles Heel. Left to their own devices they will implode and take many dark souls with them. That will not affect those of the Light as the Creator has decreed exactly how this cycle will end and it is not to be in destruction.@ - SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 22 May 2009,

There have been so many coincidences. Just when I was trying hard to persuade myself that the was no direct connection between the neighbour upstairs and those next door, they both launched from complete silence to extreme noise again. Then, after several weeks of that, they all went back to being silent again! All I know is that there is definitely some form of synchronicity going on.

Knowing what I know now about negative energy and intention directed at people individually and collectively from the lower astral planes (or wherever), I understand that all these >coincidences= might well have one source, a hidden one unbeknown to the people involved. When there=s a full moon, weak-minded (unconscious) people who desire drama may behave more wildly, as certainly seemed to be the case with Pigsy! Perhaps, in addition to this kind of emotional trigger, other forces are at work to create disturbance, successfully creating turbulence in those kinds of people as well as causing stress to people who they may not be able to reach directly in this manner through those whom they can.  When people have no spiritual energy, no love or joy, inside them, animating them, fulfilling them to some degree, they become more receptive to lower forms of stimulation: negative energy, power, lust, drama, and so forth.

But, then, I have to ask the question, who or what exactly decided that this is the place I should live in for this length of time? Is it an initiation imposed on me by my Higher Self, by >the gods,= by the ascended masters or whoever is involved? I am pretty certain that this is a teaching construct of some kind at least even if it is designed to shake me out of my >victim consciousness= and learn to express power by creating a reality I DO want, by finally finding a way to move to a more ideal home environment which I will deeply appreciate in contrast to this monstrosity.

"With the amount of energy it takes you to blame others for your problems, you could be devoting energy to actually solving them. Accepting responsibility for the suffering you experience is the first step to overcoming it. When you realise this, you cease being a victim of circumstance, because you realise you never really were. You’ve been a victim of your own shortcomings, and now that you’ve accepted them, you are capable of change." - Paul John Moscatello.

Do thoughts make you feel better? No. Can they? If you are a particularly emotional woman perhaps. Or American! Haha. It does not appear to work for me anyway. The emotional response has to come first and that is an experience of something truth within or without. I don’t tend to respond emotionally unless something or someone affects me deeply. Power or passion, inspiration or intensity have to be there.

It is likely that this crisis, this cocoon, is also an attempt to deprogramme myself, to cast off low expectations or passive acceptance of my environment and will and demand better for myself. It is fair to say that I have not been familiar with love and abundance in my life and that I have just settled for whatever quality of life I can afford as I trundle along suffering for my art! I have not been expecting life to be good or to have what I need? The energies of anticipation, of desire, of affirmation, of imagination, of hope are not potent enough to pull myself out of this hole. The situation calls for sterner stuff! Self-mastery and taking command. And, if that doesn=t work - that is, if I am unable to empower myself quickly enough - a little divine intervention would be very welcome (indeed, I am working on this too)! Eventually, through familiarity with positive results I might develop the faith that moveth mountains.

“Heal your being and then reconnect with your guides for they are your strength and your support system. It is time to be your own true being and to follow your own soul of light, allow your guides to help you be free from chemicals in your food and always protect yourself with light against unwanted energies that wish to influence you. Archangel Michael will protect you if you ask him…Please enhance your flames of light.” - Priestess Veronica, A soul who witnessed the destruction of Atlantis (channelled through Natalie Glasson, and

As I have mentioned previously, the woman upstairs is somewhat psychic and clairvoyant and this was a subject of mutual interest during our friendly conversations during the first year that she lived here. She also told me that some people can see what you are doing from another house using a psychic technique. She smiled wryly as though suggesting that her gifts extended to this and then said something like, >No that I=d want to do that.=

Imagine that above and next door to your home live evil monsters! I=m not saying any of these people are evil monsters, just weak, insecure and negative. In addition, yes I do believe that they attract and are influenced by >dark= spirits through their negative thoughts and emotions. Human beings are engaged negatively by entities on the lower astral planes Awho, at best, are manipulative or mischievous and, at worst, are malign and destructive.@ (Gildas, A Message of Love by Ruth White with Gildas, p.92). These lower entities are sending negative thoughts to people=s energy fields (that is, of those who are negative and fearful and therefore receptive). >Agent Smith= and other dark entities easily assume control of >ordinary= folk because they are weak-minded slaves who are plugged into the Matrix. There is influence if not possession so no one can be trusted. Whether the human participation is conscious or unconscious, this agenda is designed to keep you miserable, to keep you down, to keep your vibration low, so that they feel better, secure or powerful, somehow superior or in control. It is important to be conscious and mindful, aware of what is in our minds, and to have the integrity to ensure that they contain what we want in them. In an awakened state we are self-possessed. [See AppendixVI: Heart of the Tao for further information on this subject].

“We want you to break your ties with the old where it no longer serves you, and it will allow you to walk free from its affect. With the Light as your protection the lower energies can no longer harm you, or deflect you from your path. Staying within your light is a discipline that you will come to learn, that will also keep you safe from psychic attacks. Be alert and you will not drop your guard in response to such attacks, and know that these can come from discarnate Beings. Your light attracts quite a lot of interest, and not always by the more evolved souls.” - SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 18 January 2010, 

Zenderfly the Witch, upstairs, once confided that she suffers from walk-ins (in this case, negative entities entering the body and taking over to some degree) but when I tried to offer solutions she was not interested. I asked a clairvoyant friend for suggestions and they said that visualising gold light could help although their guide said he did not believe in walk-ins (at least brief ones) and that these entities were more likely to be past-life selves. It was as if she neither expected nor welcomed any insightful response to such a statement. When I probed deeper she was vague and did not seem to even have any further information. I suspect that it was a pure lie.

Christians would say that they’re ‘in league with the Devil.’ That is the shallow or simplistic way of looking at it. They are bent on a destructive scheme to oust or drive me crazy, or whatever. This allows certain mischievous, negative astral entities to influence their weak minds and inspire them with cunning plans and suggestions. They think they’re being clever but they’re just pawns in someone else’s game. Similarly, my own commitment to the Light now that I know the Light is returning fully means I have more support from the inner planes than before when I had pretty much zero support. We will be free from the dark forces when we reach the fifth dimension, where love is unconditional, because they cannot enter the realms of Light.

White Eagle explains that we must control the switch of our chakra-system in order to tune into the right radio frequency, lest we get only “a terrible babble…causing the derangement of the brain, and nervous breakdown.” (The Light Bringer, The White Eagle Publishing Trust, Hants., U.K., 2001, p.114). If ever we are in trouble in this way, he counsels, we must remember to “let the I AM take control” so that it can surface and take over the temple; and drive out the moneylenders and “those making the noisy babble” in some parts of the astral planes. (ibid).

I ought to add here, I suppose, that, around December 2009, I installed an electronic sound frequency device in the hall for a week or two to deter the rats from continuing to burrow their way through the carpet beneath the front door to my flat. I switched it on only at night although most of the time I forgot! After that, I decided it would be better to block the gap between the door and the carpet with a piece of wood instead. A week or so after I had removed the rat-repellent device and extension lead from the hallway outside my front door, a CCTV camera head appeared on the large boxes containing El Phaba’s books, which she keeps in the hall for some reason. It has remained there ever since. Other items, mainly letters and junk mail, come and go but that remains!

“I woke up last night to find the ghost of Gloria Gaynor standing at the foot of my bed.
At first I was afraid.......then I was petrified....”

At first, I thought, ‘No! It can’t be! She couldn’t have put that there on my account! What? As if she believes that the device I had set up was somehow designed to vex her?’ Maybe she was paranoid. Perhaps she just used the idea of placing something in the hall as a counterpart to my Jolly Roger which is still flying merrily in the back garden; that is, she got the idea after feeling slightly daunted for a second or two at my device. It satisfies her ego that she is doing something to avenge her hurt pride or whatever even if it has no real effect, which it doesn’t, except that it amuses me very slightly that someone could be that dumb! By the way, I have since discovered a Jolly Roger flag flying high in an allotment only a few miles away on a main road for all to see, which I found most intriguing.

Anyway, this was her response for sure, this small CCTV camera staring directly into the hall (in the direction that I walk through the hall when leaving the house), pointing upwards as far as it will go. ‘I can see you!’ Yeah, except that there’s no lead and the battery compartment is empty. Oh, but then I forgot, it may just symbolise her prowess in the field of remote viewing. A little reminder? Perhaps I should dance naked again beneath her bed…perhaps she misses it! [Retrospective note: Shortly writing this I had to stick a note in the hall for El-Phaba about something relating to my mail. I moved the camera so that it was pointing up at the note. I later considered replacing it with a smiley face after a week or two. A few days later, however, she had returned the camera to its previous position, looking up at me as I pass on my way out of the house. I picked it up and, er, I can be clumsy sometimes! Now the camera head no longer moves but sits there staring straight ahead like it’s suffering from a chronic mental malfunction].

Jeshua Ben Joseph (channelled through Jayem, >Questions and Answers from the Way of Series,=

AQ: Can you speak about the need, or lack of need, to work directly with the dark side, both on the physical and astral plane?
A: Yes, I can do that. [Pause]
Q: Will you?
A: That is another matter.
Indeed, beloved friend, first look well and understand the place within that would draw a line and decide what is light and what is dark. For remember that suffering comes from a split mind, a mind that sees conflict, division, separation. If it is true that only Love heals ‑ and I assure you that it is ‑ can you look upon what you have called darkness and discover the light within it by shining light upon it? Are there dark forces in the realm of experience, within the realm of Creation, as you know it? Yes, but I do not mean by this that there is a force separate from you or separate from the reach of God's Love that holds the power to direct, influence, or control you in any way.
Darkness...As the journey that you're on begins to end, you will come to see that darkness is nothing more than a part of your own beingness which has been neglected and not loved. For when you love what you perceive as darkness, you reclaim it as a part of yourself. And by loving it, you transform it. And the power you had given it by separating it from you, returns to you where it truly abides.
Is there a difference between what could be called darkness in the realm in which you live and move and have your being, seemingly as a body in space and time, and that which you call the astral realms? No! Everything exists right where you are. For you abide as fully on those realms as you do sitting on the floor in this moment. An astral realm is made such only because you have withdrawn your awareness of it and sought to constrict it merely into the physical dimension. Therefore, peering out from within a body, it looks like there is another dimension, that you choose to call the astral realm, where things are hidden from your view. They're not hidden at all. They are merely inaccessible if you use the apparatus of the physical eyes. But if you use the eye within, nothing is hidden.
What is astral and what energies abide therein are, therefore, nothing more than that which abides within your own consciousness, your own mind. And what is the way of working and dealing with those dark forces? Where you are in your third dimensional experience as a body‑mind requires only that you look lovingly upon your brother or your sister, that you touch them. For those many forces and beings that seem to reside in realms unseen, called by many an astral realm, the strategy, if you will, is perfectly identical. It is one and the same thing, because only Love can heal.
Think well upon what is given unto you in this answer. Contemplate it deeply. Within three weeks= time, given the current momentum of your mind, you will begin to have some rather interesting revelations. You will literally feel the mind, shall we say, being rewired, shifting to a whole new level of perception, understanding, and natural ability. For what seems to be unseen on the astral will then begin to move in the direction of seeing it as clearly as you do the hand before your face. Pleasant journeys!@

“Much has been said on your Internet about ‘ETs’ revealing themselves to humanity en mass. Once you have fully embraced your fifth dimensional nature, these myriad beings will be your neighbours, friends and family. You will no longer hold any fear regarding their assistance or their subsequent visitations and communications. In fact, you will be joyous to once again have conscious contacts with old friends that became invisible to you during your long venture into the third dimension.
These meetings may initially begin with a trusted channel or within your own consciousness. We visit you first via consciousness. Then, as you are ready, we visit you as members of your new reality. Fear in any form will instantly stop the experience of our communication, so please try to release any of the psychic scar tissue in your biological brain due to the mass hysteria and fear sent forth by the forces of Fear and Darkness. 
Fortunately, these forces are beginning to leave your reality, for your resonance is high enough that their indoctrinations can no longer impinge upon your consciousness. Their need for power over others disallows them from following you past the Lower Astral Plane of the fourth dimension and into the fifth dimension and beyond. You may ‘feel’ these dark forces as a lower frequency in the third dimensional remnants of your life, but you now realise that the only power Darkness ever had in your life was the power that you gave it.
You have also learned that Darkness cannot attach Light. It can only expand your own inner Darkness. Hence, once you are the Master of your own Darkness, you are beyond the reach of any external Dark Forces. With fear becoming a distant memory, you can freely and easily accept the inner call knocking on the door of your consciousness. This call sends you congratulations for a job well done, as well as a diploma for your long awaited graduation.”
- The Arcturians (channelled through Dr. Suzanne Caroll, ‘Arcturian Corridor. Step 17,’ Multidimensional News, December 2009,

“This world you are living in is now a fourth dimensional world an astral world. It is still a world of polarity, but there is a difference. That polarity is just an illusion! There are stories from every path of initiation about ‘The Guardian of the Threshold,’ and most often the Guardian is a terrible monster. When an initiate is developed enough to travel to the astral worlds, the first thing the initiate will encounter is the Guardian. The initiate must defeat the Guardian to make further progress on their spiritual path. This is considered a test, and the test must be passed, or the instruction of the master stops. Every Esoteric tradition has its method of how to deal with the Guardian and overcome it. The one universal truth about this test is that the Guardian is you. That terrible demon is an astral apparition of your worst fears. A monster yes, but it is nothing more than an illusion.
                In every tradition the solution is for the initiate to release their fears and personal demons and then they will overcome the Guardian. It will just disappear. That is why each spiritual tradition, or path of initiation, has always had a focus on developing clarity, and personal qualities such as humility, forgiveness, and love. These qualities are the only way you can pierce the illusions of the astral worlds. As in the traditions of old, and in the ascension progression today, the upper dimensional frequencies are not opened to the initiate until this test has been passed. In an initiation, there is no failure. If the test is not passed, the lesson is merely repeated until the initiate gets it. This is the best metaphor I can give you to describe the experiences you are having in this dimensional frequency. Remember, the Guardian is just an illusion, and polarity is just an illusion. If you release those illusions and beliefs, release those fears, the Guardian disappears! The world you experience will recreate itself around your new reality perceptions. The assistance of all the hosts of heaven is available to each of you, but you must ask. We cannot violate your free agency, even to assist you. All the assistance you need to walk through these changes peacefully and joyfully is available to each of you. This information is given to you to assure you that all is well. My role is to shift your fears, to assure you of divine love, and to awaken you to potentials you may have to assist the collective.
Each of you has only one responsibility in this lifetime, and that responsibility is for YOUR OWN LIFE. Divine law is As Above So Below; As the Inner So the Outer. When you perceive difficulties, enemies, or bogey men, in the outside world around you, look to your inner life for they will exist there as well. If you clear these perceptions from your inner life you will find that magically, your outer life, your experience, and perceptions shift. It is divine law. You can bring about the elimination of polarity very simply by working on your own life, and that is all each of you are required to do. Go forward and create of your life an absolute masterpiece of joy. The tools are given to you, the power is given to you, and all the assistance and guidance that you could possibly need is available. Each of you must actually DO IT, and as you do it you will transform your world and the larger world as well. You have nothing left to fear but fear itself for fear is the last great evil that remains in the world. Work on your fear, and eliminate it from your mental body and emotional body, and as you do so you will eliminate it from your life. Fear is the only enemy left, and that enemy is only located within each of you. Blessings to all, for we love you, we honour you, and we only seek to serve each of you. Truly, the great ones are those who are incarnate at this time of change. Your initiation is nearly complete. All that remains is for each of you to pass the tests of joy.”
- Metatron (channelled through Laurie Gilmore, ‘The Ascension is Life lived from Joy,’ 1994. In her book Initiation, Elisabeth Haich describes how, in ancient Egypt, initiation, during which one would meet the form of one’s fears personified, took place in a box with no food or light for three days. She also explains, having failed her own initiation, she encountered this same entity in her 20th-century life).

“‘My life floweth through ye, and ye are at one with thy Father. Therefore do I test ye that ye may armour and strengthen them against the day of battle; for now is the time when ye make ready thy weapons and perfect thyself in all knightly exercises, for ye fight an unknown and treacherous foe who riseth up against thee when ye are not aware; who sleepeth not, but waiteth always to strike and to destroy.
                As ye seek to rise, the powers of Darkness will gather around ye, for the light ye show is for them a challenge to mortal combat, and they will pursue ye while earth calls ye her child, and the body bears up within its frame. Therefore, my son, know thine own weakness, and that the walls of thy city are exposed to hostile attack, and seek help from Him who seeth the secrets of the heart and understandeth the temptation of the soul, to whom all things are visible and who walketh with ye in the Darkness as in the Light.’”
                - St. Francis (The Shining Brother. Recording the spirit return of St. Francis of Assisi and its sequel Francis Speaks Again by Laurence Temple, Psychic Press, London, U.K., 1941, p.108).

“I assure you that no dark energy can hold up to the transmutational power of violet alchemy where we stand. In fact, you may even want to brush the dust off those old sorcery books and give another whirl at casting magic spells because our powers are starting to work in very noticeable ways.
And if you are not familiar with/accustomed to using the magnificent violet fire, and feel bullied by the lower-astral energies, sometimes these spirits just need to be shown who's boss. As with most things, I tend to go over-board and so I will whip out all my tools at once in a panic…but really all that's needed is a solid boundary. If you just fill up your space with your energy…meaning, make your energy VERY BIG and felt…which usually amounts to a sincere telepathic ‘PISS-OFF!,’ you'll be golden. And yes, these energies respond well to anger because they speak that language, but it’s more about solidifying boundaries and closing any gaping holes in our energy field that let these little suckers in. Learning to master our energy means mastering our participation with the seen AND unseen worlds…this month is a perfect time to practice your powers in the dark.”
- ‘LOVE takes the Lead: the return of feminine power,’ 11 July 2011,

“People living in a third- and lower fourth-dimensional reality exist within a vortex of unseen energies; however, these powerful, lower frequency patterns are as real as the air you breathe. Voicing irritation or angry thoughts in forceful, loud tones draws forth lower astral plane substance, a swirling mass of distorted, chaotic energy. It is vitally important that you monitor and control your thought patterns so that you may exist in a balanced force field of loving, empowering and beneficial thought forms, instead of a whirlpool of negative, distorted, chaotic energy…You must traverse the shadowlands of the lower astral planes and face all the negative illusions you have created: fear, guilt, shame, unworthiness, abandonment and a fatalistic sense of despair. Gradually, you will gain the assurance that if you face these negative thought forms head-on, there is nothing to fear. You will begin living a dual awareness of Self whereby you will gradually tap into the higher astral plane levels of the fourth dimension and the lower mental planes of the fifth dimension. You will slowly harmonize and integrate your emotional and mental natures so that you may then move on to the process of attaining a ‘harmonious oneness with the many facets of your human Self.’ When this has been accomplished, you are ready for the process of integration with the multiple facets of your Higher Self.” - Archangel Michael channelled through Ronna Herman, ‘Where Are You on The Path of Ascension?’ 10 April 2012,

“Much of humanity’s consciousness has been entrapped in the astral planes of the past paradigms. For the past two years all of you have been working very hard at recreating a dynamic of the ancient ways. When I speak of the ancient ways I speak of the origins in which light was utilised to perform alchemy, and in some cases what is considered magic. This is a very real part of your world, and it is time that you also recognise that you are a magician, you are an alchemist and when the human mind continues to haunt you with its past patterning you will find yourself experiencing great difficulty in manifesting the new world.
As this portal closes the entry point to the astral plane of the old paradigm, it opens a very powerful new system in which those who are ready will be able to create. The very first step that all of you need to take is the conscious decision to buy into that which is new and not that which is old, old in terms of your past paradigm, old in terms of the patterns that you have experienced within this lifetime.
Your fate has shown you dimensions of life that exist in which pain and suffering are experienced, debilitation, denial and dysfunction. That however does not necessarily need to be the theme for the rest of your existence, and I say existence for a purpose, because the majority of humanity is purely existing.”
                - Master Kuthumi (channelled through Michelle Eloff, ‘9:9:9 The Fluid Love, Fluid Universe Activation & Air Gates 23-29,’ 9 September 2009,

“Were you to look into the heart of someone whom you have considered a tyrant, a man who has bought great harm to many, you might find a being of great sensitivity who was so horrified by what he found within himself that he sought to empty that inner world by projecting it outwards and to deny and seal it up within. Acknowledging your ghosts helps them and you and your world.” - Sananda (channelled through Christopher Sell, ‘Ghosts,’ July 2014,

The archons (powerful demonic spirits in this galaxy) feed on weakness, says Laura Magdalene Eisenhower. They represent a “demonic consciousness that rules the planet.” They are essentially demons ruling the part of who we are that is represented by the lower chakras, she s explains. They feed on greed and power on one hand and survival, fear and escapism on the other. And the Illuminati have “thrived on our imbalance and ignorance.” She adds: “The reptilians and greys want to take over planet Earth through covert mind control methods. And that’s to keep us separate from our organic nature, separate from Gaia, separate from the unity consciousness…So, it’s about our chakra system…To me, archons rule the lower chakras and the aeons are what connects us to source and represent the heart chakra and beyond. And that’s what the higher races represent.” (Interview with Alfred Lambremont Webre, 2014). Robert M. Stanley, in the preceding interview with Webre, described the Archons as being parasitic entities that “insinuate themselves into our minds, in essence just to provoke us so that we will generate negative emotions that they can then feed off of and become stronger.”

“Laughter is forbearance (abstinence); laughter is philosophy. The heavens clear when they laugh, and the great secret of divine omnipotence resides in an eternal smile!” - Eliphas Levi (The Great Secret: Or Occultism Unveiled, 1868).

Foot note

1. The skull and crossbones flag is also displayed by the U.S.-based NGO Sea Shepherd Conservation Society which, according to an article concerning Wikileaks cables in The Guardian on 6 January 2011, “has a reputation for physically confronting whalers, sealers and illegal fishing boats” and “monitors illegal fishing in the Galapagos Islands and spends months each year following and harassing the Japanese whaling fleet,” preventing them from reaching their quotas in recent years.

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