By Alexandra and Dan, April 2013
This channeling is part of a Soul purpose reading with Saint-Germain.
It's been reprinted here with our client's permission.
"Dear Saint-Germain, I'm confused about my spiritual growth. I understand that we're supposed to overcome the ego and live as our Souls do. But why? Can you explain this to me? Because it's not clear. What is the ego, and how does it stop me from living a Soul-centered life?"
My good friend, I AM Saint-Germain. Most people identify heavily with their egos, or personalities, and not so much with the higher aspects of their Being, such as the Soul or God Self. This is the source of much confusion and suffering in their lives.
The ego is not you, and it has no independent life of its own. Instead, it is a false belief about you. The ego is a deeply rooted misunderstanding of who you are that originated long before you ever walked upon the Earth.
At its core, the ego is convinced that you became separated from God shortly after your creation. It believes that God stopped loving you, and then abandoned you, because you did what you wanted to do with your life, rather than what God expected you to do.
The ego believes that God is punishing you for this now – for abusing the free will you were given in order to violate God’s Will for Creation.
The Truth Is the Best Corrective for the Ego
In truth, God has never left your side. God’s Love is always there for you because your are Its living embodiment. And your belief that you have violated God’s Will is equally invalid.
It is impossible for you to violate God’s Will for creation because you ARE God’s Will for creation. You and all of humanity are God’s creative agents in the Universe. Your belief that you have done otherwise is nothing more than your misunderstanding of how co-creating with God works.
Even so, this misperception has provided fertile ground for the appearance of the ego.
The Birth of the Ego
The ego was born the moment that you first imagined, and accepted in your mind, that God had abandoned you. In that instant, the ego appeared and promised to be your friend, if you would only pledge your allegiance to it, and agree to accept its help.
The ego said that it would show you how to survive in a world without God’s Love – in a world where you lack what you need, and what you already have can be taken from you by others.
But because the ego’s assumptions about God’s Love are wrong, it has never been right about anything it has offered you. As a consequence, its promise to help has only sabotaged your efforts to be happy in the end.
How the Ego Creates Sub-personalities
How has the ego offered to help you?
To assist you, the ego has created a variety of personas to deal with the various threats it perceives. These personas, or sub-personalities, are psychological points of view that you assume, which try to protect you from whatever is feared, whatever is perceived to be lacking in your environment, or whatever source of love you think will abandon you.
They promise to assist you, by first assuming that the world is a fearful place, and then telling you that you are in danger of losing what you value as long as you are here.
In this lifetime, your ego, with its entourage of sub-personalities began to assemble the first time you felt unloved or abandoned. For many, this was in early childhood. At this time, you likely experienced an interruption in the flow of love between you, your parents, or someone else you trusted.
You may have said something or done something that did not meet with their approval, so they withdrew their acceptance of you.
You were made to feel bad about it; to accept responsibility for having caused it; and then to have to do something about it to make things better. You internalized this unlovable image of yourself and accepted it as your true identity.
From that point forward, this internalized image has acted as a sub-personality. Now it appears every time you are confronted with similar circumstances.
It is there to remind you that you don’t deserve to be loved because you have acted contrary to the wishes of another. It frightens you with the possibility that you will be abandoned by this person, and then it tells you that you must do something about it, despite the hopelessness of your situation.
This fear is so similar to the shock you experienced when you first believed that you had been abandoned by God, that it cannot help but have consequences.
Ending the Illusion
To dispel the illusions of sub-personalities in your mind, you must first reclaim the awareness of Who You Really Are.
You must remember that you are a child of God, and God also, and dedicate yourself to recalling this truth, each time you are inclined to doubt it. As you do, you will untangle the lies of these false personas that were planted in your mind by the ego, and find the love and healing that you desire.
There are really only two steps involved in doing this. The first thing that you must do is stop fighting with yourself. Every time you struggle with the illusion of being nothing more than one of your sub-personalities, you only make it more real in your mind.
Understand that each time you allow yourself to wear the shame, blame, or guilt that motivated the creation of a sub-personality, you are actually confirming that this sub-personality is who you really are. It is NOT. You must step out of this cycle of reinforcement completely.
End the illusion with a simple proclamation, “I Am Perfectly Whole; and wholly loved, worthy, and complete.” This is the second step you will take, and it will heal your mind with the Truth. As you do this, you will invite these wayward sub-personalities back home, and give then the love and acceptance that they need.
Repeat this affirmation often, and then live it with all your heart. Make this a daily practice, and you will see that your struggles begin to fall away.
Once you have taken these steps, there is nothing more you need to do. Simply anchor yourself firmly in the remembrance that you are a child of God, and God also, and then live your life with confidence and joy. Know that you are fully supported in this and deeply loved, and that your value before God is beyond question.
Thank you, my friend, for your question. I AM Saint-Germain.