Arrr! See CONTENTS for links to the 125 chapters of The Monstaville Memoirs plus introductions, conclusions, postscripts and appendices. This treasure trove also includes a collection of articles offering further insights into the themes explored in the trilogy. Namely, managing suffering and conflict (dealing with hostile people if you are nervous, sensitive or shy) and learning not to react
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Friday, 25 October 2013
Monstaville I. Chapter 36
“If someone is rude to you, you give
them power and give their behaviour credence if you react (that’s what they
- Sophie Ellis Baxter (regarding
what her mother always said).
22 December 2002.
In a way, evil behaviour is only
immaturity. Being the opposite of ‘live’ it suggests that someone has not yet
learned how to truly live, to turn towards the truth and start to live fully as
a being of Light, a ray of divine sunshine, an expression of the One Source.
Evil suggests selfish, demanding, disruptive, fearful, aggressive people who
are weak and give way to their violent temper when they’re not getting their
own way - or to try and get their own way. They’re brats. Destructive. They’re
at the mercy of their own vices, paranoia, arrogance, greed, insecurities,
jealousy, etc. Thus, they express only negative, or undeveloped qualities and attune to dark forces, satisfied by the
power and feeling of security and
importance that brings them.
But, when a child shouts and is
destructive and violent to get its own way, you cannot simply give in to it.
The child tests you until it knows your boundaries. It gets away with whatever
it can. It pushes because it feels free to do so and wants all the power it can
get, to have its own way all the time.
Pigsy wants to intimidate me so he
feels secure, but he can’t get at me. He wants me to move out, but I won’t.
Thus, he is learning that I am standing firm and not allowing him to get at me,
even though he’d like to believe he is. If such people have weakness like that,
surely my will expressed mentally can shift him away from here, relying on the
universe, of course, rather than seeking to control him.
with compassion at the heavy drinkers. Know, that you too have your weaknesses. If you want to live in peace and clarity, then look at the poor and the handicapped carrying the burden of their misery, and see how fortunate you are!" - Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam.
Riding a horse. They’re like
children. They know if you’re an idiot or not - if you’re nervous, scared,
awkward - they throw you off. Hugely powerful children. That’s the mentality
you’ve got to deal with. The same goes for Pigsy! You have to show that you’re
more confident and calm, secure and assured than he is. His confidence is
external and he feels particularly confident when drunk (with his girlfriend).
He’s competing; wants to exhibit his power; wants to feel more powerful than
you, to ensure that he will get his own way and not be questioned for anything
- probably due to a criminal mentality.
For him, the gauge of one’s power is
through physical demonstration. But, you do not have to display power on his
level. That’s his domain and you keep away from it since he has power there.
Express your power from within. Use spiritual strength and magic and a positive
will and mind. Basically, he is weak. He’s only powerful in a fleeting moment
and that’s why he confronts people then, because it’s a special occasion for
him to feel powerful enough to put others down. He relies on that to make you
feel insecure and scared for the rest of the time and he makes loud,
intimidating noises and so forth to try and remind you of it. He thinks you’re
a coward for not standing up to him, and avoiding him instead, but he also
thinks like that because it makes him feel powerful and because he wants to
believe you’re a coward. That’s his little ‘proof.’ It satisfies his ego,
believing that he is strong and you are weak.
“Silence is the ultimate weapon of
power.” - General Charles De Gaulle.
Angel Card: Forgiveness. But the issue is Me having to live here under the
threat, and I need him to move away before I can have peace of mind.
But, perhaps you shouldn’t worry
about Pigsy at all. You try to avoid him as a practical manoeuvre rather than out of fear. If you meet him, then
you meet him, but you pay little attention to the encounter. So what if he
attacks you, threatens you? He probably won’t touch you. Try to be calm and
centred. It’s a discipline. Even though you’re finding it difficult staying
grounded for long. Perhaps living with a viper upstairs is okay, not a problem.
You simply ignore him, and avoid him. And you make sure you are mentally
stronger than him, and that you’re not afraid, and so he feels more vulnerable
or, rather, worried or something. But, then, he’s likely to try and press to
wind you up and attempt to make you more afraid.
never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy." - Leo
Anyway, don’t allow any of it to
work. Yes, but when there’s an ugly, smelly piece of shit on your doorstep you
clean it up and get rid of it! How can you live like that, with the stench and
always having to remember to step around it when you leave the house and return
home? It’s disgusting! Maybe you can point a hose at it and wash it away - that
is, direct pure, positive psychic energy at Pigsy to wash him away, but also
ensuring there is force and pressure to make him move away, to stay away, to
leave. Dog shit that is particularly stubborn has to be forced more intently,
and usually to get rid of every trace, one must also scrape it off. Make him
feel the pressure of not feeling comfortable here, not belonging here. Push him
away so he gets used to being away from here - then finally views keeping the
flat as a waste of money and his campaign to expel me a wasted effort. Give up Mr.
By the way, if you spray dirty water
on the shit, you leave dirty water there. Better to use pure, clean water
(positive psychic energy) that contains love rather than negative energy.
He psyches you out - like a beast
sensing your smell. Either you’re master or not and, if not, he can assert
power over you, unless you don’t allow it. Then, you’re either ‘friends’ or
Don’t fight fire with fire.
Don’t clean shit with shit.
Don’t react to negativity.
"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness
is the attribute of the strong.” - Gandhi.
Angel Card: Flexibility. You need to be able to turn your mind to your
interests, projects, tai chi, meditation, studies, books, work, Pigsy and a relationship if there is one.
Ying (Curtis Wong):
Which - which one of us has won?
Kan (Philip Ahn): Won?
Caine (David Carradine): Must there not
be one who is the victor?
Ying: And one the
Kan: When you were young, did you not
stand by the fountain and watch the bubbles rise?
Caine: They were very beautiful to see.
Kan: In a sense, a victory for the
gossamer circles of liquid over the insubstantial air they imprison. When you
tried to grab them, what became of them?
Ying:They were gone.
Caine: They were empty, without
Kan: So, too, can victory be.
Caine: And defeat?
Kan: Does not the true value lie in
what one does with either?
Kung Fu (Season 2, Episode 14, ‘A
Dream Within A Dream,’ 1974).
For some reason, the few friends
with whom I have shared an interest in playing games and engaging in sports
have been selfishly competitive. They are wonderful people whom I respect and
admire and with whom I have an excellent rapport. Yet, I have never been able
to appreciate how they can behave so monstrously during these activities,
wanting to win at any cost. When I engage in games and sports, my intention is
first to enjoy them, second to do my best and play will and third to win if
this is the result of my efforts. I also prefer a relatively equal contest and
find it more fulfilling if both players are expressing their potential. These
men, however, appear to use such pastimes to indulge in a sense of power as
though it is an opportunity to release their males egos into the wild and
excuse to behave like savages! They become so single-minded and dominant,
channelling their aggression to such an extreme that it seems there lurks a
wild, carnivorous animal inside them that regards winning as a matter of life
and death. They cannot bear to lose. They do not enjoy the game as much as I do
and they do not perform at their best unless they feel secure as a result of
being ahead in the score, which they follow religiously. Any encouragement and
praise I might provide out of sincere appreciation goes to their heads and
helps them to play better! And the more they are winning by, the more ruthless
they become, as if even the goal of winning has been superseded by the new one
of slaughtering the competition and reigning supreme in a despotic campaign of
All this they are proud of. It has
nothing to do with playing well. That is not their concern. They simply want to
win by any means necessary, including playing dirty if they can get away with
it. They easily decide themselves that they are doing nothing wrong, that they
are not cheating when they consistently talk or even sing each time it is my
turn! They are brutal opportunists. If I am not playing well they feel good and
if I am under the weather they fix their sights on thrashing me by as many
points as possible. If they are feeling ill, even if they just have a cold,
they will not play. They are nowhere in sight because it is not the opportunity
to enjoy the game that stimulates them; it is winning alone. It is the nature
of Will to decide and succeed, to attain goals, to manifest results and express
a purpose. To identify with the will as a separate, physical ego is, I suppose,
a stage of growth for those souls who have neglected this aspect of
consciousness in previous lifetimes. Sports are a safe arena in which to
develop this crude level of will that becomes the champion of subconscious
insecurities. Instead of a ray of sunshine which emanates from the Higher Self
and is accompanied by enjoyment and love, egocentric will resembles a sharp
dart that is thrown in attack, that focuses on forcing the opposition down
instead of raising themselves to be all they can be. So, anyway, once my own
will was activated fully I often found myself applying it just as keenly,
although not at the expense of my higher nature, purely because I had had
enough of the abuse and gloating when they had not even deserved to win. These
occasions have represented a healthy challenge for me even though I remain
disgusted with such childish behaviour – which isn’t fabulously mature either,
not play tug o' war. I'd rather play hug o' war.
everyone hugs instead of tugs.
everyone giggles and rolls on the rug.
everyone kisses, and everyone grins,
everyone cuddles, and everyone wins."
It would seem that those men behave
so aggressively in sports because their own fathers played to win even when
they were young children, not giving them a chance to enjoy games because the
onus was on winning. The adult smashed the child and the child grew up living
in fear of losing at games because it must be quite a nasty experience when you
are young and have no way of competing with your Dad. So games become hard and
serious. Or, at least, the fathers were setting an aggressive or egocentric
example. My father, by contrast, endeavoured to teach me how to play games by
balancing merit and fairness, sometimes playing well to challenge me and
sometimes pretending to play to the best of his ability, often giving me
chances thus increasing my confidence. I was, therefore, brought up to enjoy games,
not to take winning very seriously at all. The reward is always in playing
well, in doing one’s best.
When fighting an enemy, it is
necessary and wise to deceive and distract. The simple goal is to win. In all
other - less extreme - situations things aren’t so black and white. A more
civilised and compassionate attitude is required. There are no excuses for
taking aggression out on others, actually. The ego needs to be better than
others. The ego is nothing more than a spoilt brat and some of us have a harder
time growing out of it. As far as I’m concerned, if you cheated by distracting
me, you haven’t won. Simple. I don’t care if you’re 100 times better than me at
the sport, or even if you played better. You is disqualifide! In addition,
while fighting physically or with weapons is about winning, in a civil society
you cannot go around fighting duels with people or whatever. There is no
conclusion, no fight to the death. You must, therefore, learn the art of
strategy in psychological and social terms in order to cope, contain, evade and
They who gloat do so because it is a
hollow victory for one who cares only about winning. Such a person attempts to
find some feeling of glory and superiority to assure themselves it was
Tolle talking to Oprah Winfrey.
A man participating in an archery
competition was trying very hard to win but couldn’t: “Somebody asked the Zen
Master, ‘What’s he doing wrong?’ And the Zen Master said, ‘His need to win
drains him of power. And so his need to win...he wants to have some future
moment where he is going to be fulfilled. So his attention is not totally in
the now.” Tolle explains that all power resides in the now. Without being in
the now, it “cannot flow into what you’re doing...to have mastery in any
endeavour, whatever it is, you need to be total in what you do...and then when
they enter they call it the ‘zone.’ (Oprah said she had read about Tiger Woods
that day and “that’s what he knows - what to do - focus so there’s just him and
”Non-violence is hard work. It is
willingness to sacrifice. It is the patience to win.” - Cesar Chavez.
Bears prefer to be alone. Brown bears
which depend on the river for fish at certain times of the year have to undergo
much stress being with other bears - catching fish in the river. Not easy for
“Do not forget that you are playing a beautiful game of pretending to be
a human and play well together.”- The Group (channelled by Steve Rother,
‘Secret of the Expanding Universe,’ 16 August 2010, www.lightworker.com).
“The ego is
not a bad energy essentially it is like a child, it doesn't know any better; it
has no one to guide it and therefore enjoys ruling your life by reminding you
constantly of your failings and mistakes. Every time you think a negative
thought about yourself or another that is your ego asserting its power, playing
with you to see what it can manifest. If we imagine a child who has no parents
and has fallen into a group of youths who enjoy making mischief then we begin
to understand the ego. Children are pure and can be influenced easily. Your ego
is the pure energy of the Creator but you have allowed it to adopt negative
habits, to play games with your life and to sabotage your truth. If you noticed
your child acting in this way you would make efforts to alter their negative
habits and teach them what is good and true, but you are perfectly happy to
allow your ego to have all the fun at your expense without even a word of
complaint or objection. This is something to contemplate, it requires your
is a need to love your ego unconditionally, as if it were a child. You are not
loving it for the chaos it has caused but for the truth that it is when aligned
and guided. It is important not to scold your ego or to hold resentment toward
it but to forgive it for its controlling qualities knowing that changes can be
made with ease which would bring happiness to your life and to your ego. Your
ego thinks it is contented by the power it has but really it is a lost child
looking for love, attention and approval. We can see that the ego is not
content as it keeps creating fear, unable to receive what it desires.”
- Lady Quan Yin (channelled through Natalie Glasson, ‘Relaxing the Ego,’ 6 December 2010,www.omna.org).
“Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with
illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will
cause your angels to sing. Use the pain as fuel, as a reminder of your
strength.” - August Wilson (www.quotelady.com/subjects/strength.html).
beauty of the world has two edges, one of laughter, one of anguish, cutting the
heart asunder.” – Virginia Woolf.