Saturday, 2 February 2013

Monstaville Book I. Chapter 2


"Pain results from a judgement you have made about a thing. Remove the judgement and the pain disappears." 
- Neale Donald Walsch.

Last night. Angel Card after coming home from cabbing at 5 a.m.: Courage. This nervousness is forcing you to have greater courage than you needed to start driving a mini-cab [in Central London after not having driven for 15 years I should add!].

I was working in the lab late one night
When my eyes beheld an eerie sight
For my monster from his slab began to rise
And suddenly to my surprise

He did the mash
He did the monster mash
The monster mash
It was a graveyard smash
He did the mash
It caught on in a flash
He did the mash
He did the monster mash

- (The beginning of the song ‘Monster Mash’ by Bobby ‘Boris’ Pickett, 1962).

Things never seem to get easier for me - I start things heroically and then the monster is given/reveals even more horrific powers. Thus, I’m then defeated. All my efforts are for nothing. I lose everything and have to move away, leave, lick my wounds, struggle to survive and try to be positive/retain my sanity. So I’m always in crisis, always on the brink of death - form will not grow. I build it up and it gets destroyed. All is always thrown in the dustbin of doom. This was my strongest attempt to build my life - even going into debt to create and have something secure and worthwhile, so I could live some semblance to a normal, secure, sane existence. But even this has been destroyed (though not the debts!).

Stellovsky (Tom Jansen) to Fyodor Dostoevsky (Michael Gambon): He is a magnet for misfortune. If he was happy do you think he could write? (The Gambler, directed by Károly Makk, 1997).

Well, basically, though, I must move, yet again. It’s too dangerous here. But, now the weakened, defeated hero has no delusions. It is not worthwhile trying to establish a personal life. Form will be destroyed again. Avoid form - though, I’d prefer to keep my belongings. Perhaps form is one’s link to darkness - the thing that the darkness can latch on to, use against you. If you have no connection to, or attachment to, for - of any kind, even the body - perhaps no one can reach you. Perhaps that is the ultimate test. The personality and its reflections in the physical and material realm are what make you a target. If you are attached to them for security, desire, or whatever, the darkness can hurt you. It can reach you. But, it seems, too harsh - since I am too nervous, sensitive and vulnerable and I do need security, plus I am determined to try to finish my books and even practice astrology if I possibly can - and that requires keeping all my books, my computer and everything. I need an environment in which to preserve the foundation required to build on and reach a position of space and security where I can continue to write.

And I know that if I say, ‘Okay, you win,’ and discard all form - books, astrology, music, PC, etc., I will be reminded that they were all I had, and that my destiny ‘could,’ but ‘may not,’ be about astrology/books as that’s all I can do and what is in my heart. So then I’ll have to get a few books again, but it won’t be enough and will be a nightmare.

“It was already one in the morning; the rain pattered dismally against the panes, and my candle was nearly burnt out, when, by the glimmer of the half-extinguished light, I saw the dull yellow eye of the creature open...” - Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein (1818).

"Joy is not the absence of suffering. It is the presence of God." - Robert Schuller.

"The gloom of the world is but a shadow; behind it, yet within our reach, is Joy." - Fra Giovanni.

"Remember all ye that existence is pure joy; that all the sorrows are but as shadows; they pass and are done; but there is that which remains." – Aiwass (channelled through – or, rather, dictated to - Aleister Crowley in Cairo, Liber Al vel Legis aka The Book of the Law, 1904).

"Evil (ignorance) is like a shadow - it has no real substance of its own, it is simply a lack of light. You cannot cause a shadow to disappear by trying to fight it, stomp on it, by railing against it, or any other form of emotional or physical resistance. In order to cause a shadow to disappear, you must shine light on it." - Shakti Gawain.

Retrospective inserts.

I don't really agree with this statement by Carl Jung: "There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, to avoid facing their own soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious." I believe both are needed in tandem as a process of self-transformation. As you anchor more light more demons surface to be released and. This represents a spiritual rather than psychological emphasis of course. If you only attend to the psychology, who's to say that you will recognise the light and allow and encourage it to shine? Darkness may be where we are in the illusion of human life but the other side of the coin, which is light, is the way home! With the return of Light to our world - formed mostly of love and the angelic kingdom - the two are now interdependent whether people like it or not. The reason is simply that the Light pushes the darkness to the surface and, as it is made conscious and released - since it is all illusion - the Light of Reality takes its place. And as a result, our DNA and chakras are also filled with Light until we arrive at full consciousness as beings of Light identified with our Light - not physical - bodies. Plus, angels don't rely on cocaine like Jung did! The Western view of enlightenment was always more limited than that of the East. But, now, finally, with so much channelled information arriving here those traditions can be relegated to 'history,' being, as Sai Baba has said, no longer relevant to our growth.

“Success is not measured by what you accomplish, but by the opposition you have encountered, and the courage with which you have maintained the struggle against overwhelming odds.” - Orison Swett Marden.

Sometimes life is more about preparing the heart to catch fire with the flames of the divine through intention, determination, perseverance, patience, courage and integrity in response to life's experiences. And the ultimate glory, of course, is God's because all else is illusion.

Above All Don't Wobble by Osho (Chapter 12, 27 January 1976, Chuang Tzu Auditorium, Rajneesh Foundation, Pune, India, 1976, p.193).

[A sannyasin had come to darshan two weeks ago saying that he was overeating. Osho “suggested he chew his food more carefully, at least forty times for each mouthful, and that he spend a certain time each day having food fantasies”].

When you go on throwing things inside yourself it is a sort of aggression, a violence. Teeth are the most violent part of your body, and part of the animal heritage. When animals are aggressive they will bite. They only have teeth and nails, so it is with these that they do violence. That has remained with man too, because man comes from animals. So whenever you are chewing a lot, much violence will be satisfied. A good chewer will become less violent because through the exercise of the teeth, violence is released. A person who goes on stuffing, without chewing, will become violent. So you became sad.
                Remember that anger is one phase of violence, the active phase; and sadness is another phase, inactive, passive. Have you watched? Anger can immediately become sadness, and sadness can immediately become anger - they are not very far away. So when you were throwing things inside, the anger was there, violence was there. Now you are chewing, the violence and the anger relax and sadness will settle. But if you continue, by and by the sadness will disappear and you will feel really fulfilled and happy. So continue.

"It's funny how all living organisms are alike. When the chips are down, when the pressure's on, every creature on the face of the earth is interested in one thing and one thing only. Its own survival." - Minority Report (directed by Steven Spielberg, 2002).


Raynor C. Johnson explains that the reason we are unable to forgive other people is that the ego is interested only in survival, so we tend not to put other’s needs first, even in close relationships: “There are times when it is expedient to put their needs in front of you, but it is usually for some personal reason rather than an expression of divine love...the reason that you have not been able to forgive is because you have not lifted your mind into the realms of God energy. If you feed the problem, if you constantly go round the problem, then you cannot detach yourself from it. Your problem is in not letting go. You understand? This is where your responsibility comes in - this constant feeding of the negative. But you have to be able to recognise what you’re doing before you can do anything about it and, when recognised, the next problem is how to stop it. Of course this is where meditation comes in, this training of the mind - your control - your Higher Self being in control of your mind rather than your mind being in control of your mind. The Higher Self must be the controller if you want to become God-realised, but there are many stages before you get there...To be able to forgive, you need to be in touch with that which was there originally for you to realise that these things are all part of the illusion of what belongs to you that does not come up to expectations...So it is having this compassion for one another in the realisation that there is a long way to go. And if you can realise this, some of the pain of disillusionment will be released, so let it go; it was all part of your learning process. You may not even realise at times that you are holding on to pain unless you look within and have the courage to acknowledge your part in whatever problem that you have in any relationship. You cannot change the other person. You have enough trouble changing yourselves. Allow them to be themselves, release them from your expectations, and you will set yourself free. If you dwell too much on what they’re doing wrong you are imprisoning yourself.” (In Touch with Raynor C. Johnson by Sheila Gwillam, Light Publishing, London, U.K., 1996, p.153-154).

“You can’t manipulate yourself into forgiving yourself or others, however. Neither should you try, just because it’s the ‘spiritual thing to do.’ To know if you have truly forgiven, look for gratitude. Once you feel gratitude for the imprinting or experience (even if it’s major, like incest or rape), then you are free. You feel a deep, soul-level appreciation for yourself and the other person for serving you in such a challenging way. Such service requires great love and compassion. And remember, there are no victims – only co-creators. You designed the nature of your imprints and requested others to join in your game.” – Serapis (channelled through Tony Stubbs, An Ascension Handbook, p.94, The Book Guild Ltd, Sussex, U.K., 1991).

"Attachment is the source of all suffering." - Buddha.

“Yield nothing, despite all threats.” (From a French film, I think).

“The essence of generosity is letting go. Pain is always a sign we are holding on to something - usually ourselves. When we feel unhappy, when we feel inadequate, we get stingy; we hold on tight. Generosity is an activity that loosens us up. By offering whatever we can - a dollar, a flower, a word of encouragement - we are training in letting go.” - Pema Chodron (Comfortable with Uncertainty, 2002).

“There has always been a simple cure for fear - the choosing of self-love.” - Emmanuel.

“Live for what you love (Don’t run from what you fear).” - Ken Carey (Return of the Bird Tribes, p.180).

Morpheus (Laurence Fishburne): “You have to let it all go, Neo. Fear, doubt, and disbelief. Free your mind.” - The Matrix (directed by Andy and Larry Wachowski, 1999).

“Fear defeats more people than any other one thing in the world.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson.

“The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” - Franklin D. Roosevelt.

"When mind and body are synchronised in your life and practice, there is very little chance for neurosis of any kind to arise. The basis of neurosis, or even physical discomfort and pain, is mind and body not joining together. Sometimes the mind is miles away and the body is here. Or the body is miles away and the mind is here. The main point of practice is learning to be a proper human being, which is known as being a warrior. When mind and body are joined together, then you are joining heaven and earth, and you can be a genuine warrior. This quality of harmony will bring fearlessness. However, this fearlessness will also be punctuated by occasional fear, uncertainty, and confusion." - Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche (Smile at Fear. Awakening the True Heart of Bravery, Shambhala Publications, MA., U.S., 2009).

“The first time I met Trungpa Rinpoche was with a class of fourth graders who asked him a lot of questions about growing up in Tibet and about escaping from the Chinese Communists into India. One boy asked him if he was ever afraid. Rinpoche answered that his teacher had encouraged him to go to places like graveyards that scared him and to experiment with approaching things he didn't like. Then he told a story about travelling with his attendants to a monastery he'd never seen before. As they neared the gates, he saw a large guard dog with huge teeth and red eyes. It was growling ferociously and struggling to get free from the chain that held it. The dog seemed desperate to attack them. As Rinpoche got closer, he could see its bluish tongue and spittle spraying from its mouth. They walked past the dog, keeping their distance, and entered the gate. Suddenly the chain broke and the dog rushed at them. The attendants screamed and froze in terror. Rinpoche turned and ran as fast as he could - straight at the dog. The dog was so surprised that he put his tail between his legs and ran away.” - Pema Chödrön (When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times, Shambhala Publications, Inc., Boston, U.S., 1997, 14-15).

Dick Solomon (John Lithgow): I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want to be brave but I’m too afraid.
Harry Solomon (French Stewart): Dick, in order to be brave, you must first start by being afraid. For, true courage lies in the overcoming of fear, not in its absence.
Dick: That’s brilliant Harry! Who said that?
Harry: Blue Power Ranger.
Dick: Oh.
- 3rd Rock from the Sun (Series 3, Episode 5, ‘Scaredy Dick,’ written by David Sacks, 1997).

"Everyone believes very easily whatever they fear or desire." - Jean de La Fontaine.

“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” - Frank Herbert (Bene Gesserit’s Litany Against Fear in the novel Dune, 1965).

"You cannot change someone using fear, degradation, humiliation, or by comparing them to others. It can only be done through love, with love, for love. Love." - Suzy Kassem.

"Fear something and the vulture will come. Fear nothing and you are the vulture." - Suzy Kassem.

"What eyes do you choose to see the world through, the eyes of fear or the eyes of love? Fear feeds our ego and causes us to view the world and everyone in it as separate from ourselves. Love feeds our intuition, shows us to never be afraid and that everything and everyone in the universe are connected. Choose to see and embrace the love that is everywhere and inside of everyone and always follow your heart." – Paul Adkins.

“Although the energies in your physical, emotional and mental fields do not overlap in frequency, extremely complex resonances occur between them. For example, the energy of fear in your emotional body will stifle optimistic thoughts in your mental body. Energy also interacts within a particular body. For example, a frequency of fear automatically dampens and possibly excludes the frequency of love, because of the way that they interact. Fear – be it manifesting as suspicion, jealousy, arrogance, self-depreciation, or whatever – consists o low-frequency energy that blocks higher frequency energy. Do not judge fear as bad – it is a good teacher of some lessons – but I urge you to see it for what it is: just energy. It’s always based on a sense of inadequacy or a feeling of being unable to cope with life or some aspect of it, and, ultimately, on a sense of being separate from Spirit (not that it’s only a sense of separation. You are never actually separate nor ever could be – that’s not how the universe works).
Fear can be of such high amplitude that it swamps your entire field, and actually distorts all emotions and thoughts. With this distorted perception, you interpret even acts of kindness toward you as, say, others’ self-interest. Fortunately, as we shall see, the emotion of love acts in the same way, and can swamp all three fields.”
– Serapis (channelled through Tony Stubbs, An Ascension Handbook, p.46-47, The Book Guild Ltd, Sussex, U.K., 1991).

“What have you done with fear all of your life? Tried to overcome it? Push it away? Invalidate it? Stuff it down? Hide it under the carpet and simply pretend that it does not exist? Do you know if it were not for this Baby Fear, you would be totally telempathic. Telempathic here (points to heart), not here (points to head).” - P'taah (channelled through Jani King,
“You are all waiting – yes, waiting – for something to happen. Each one of you individually is hoping for a brighter future. We want you to learn the lesson that eternity is now, the future is now. There is neither past, nor present, nor future as separate periods of time: all is within the soul’s embrace now. It is your reaction to the now which makes your future. Never look to the future and anticipate this, that or the other. Live today, with God, and no future can hold for you any greater joy than is yours today. Many folk spend their days waiting for something to happen, for something to turn up. This is to live in fear, and today we would help you see the foolishness of this. Live today. Live and be at peace, and you have entered your kingdom of heaven.
                With regard to the problems of the age, people nearly always try to solve them from a purely material standard. We see so much sorrow in the world, and so much fear. Men and women are indeed full of fear – fearful of their brothers, their sisters, and fearful for themselves. We would speak particularly about this, because fear corrodes and consumes the happiness of a vast number of human beings. There is fear of life generally, fear of the future, fear of loss, fear of ill-health, fear of separation from loved ones, and above all, fear of death. Fear seems to be the greatest enemy of human kind, and the first thing that a human being must strive for is to overcome fear.
                Anxieties can crowd and almost submerge the mind by the turbulence of emotions involved. When fear threatens to overwhelm you, enter the quiet temple within and, by strength of will and spirit, control the emotions. Raise your heart in supplication: ‘My Father…Divine Mother.’ Do not dwell any further upon your trouble; it is now in God’s keeping. Come, with a full heart, into the circle of God’s love…”
- White Eagle (The Light Bringer. The Ray of John and the Age of Intuition, channelled through Grace Cooke, The White Eagle Publishing Trust, Hants., U.K., 2001, p.136-137).

“Beloved one, you have ‘taught’ yourself down through the ages to judge very quickly; otherwise, that which you thought was important - the bodies, the dwellings, the loved ones, the physical - could be threatened. That which you truly are cannot be threatened and will never be threatened, but there has been focus upon the physical and focus upon the reality of separateness. Now you are moving past that as you listen for that voice of higher wisdom.” - Jeshua (channelled through Judith Coates,

“‘I have no judgement one way or the other. But you have all sorts of them - and I suggest that it is your judgements which keep you from joy, and your expectations which make you unhappy. All of this put together is what causes you dis-ease and therein begins your suffering.’” - Conversations With God. An uncommon dialogue. Book 1 by Neale Donald Walsch (G.P. Putnam’s Sons, New York, U.S., 1995, p.108).

4. The root of suffering is eventually found, through spiritual practice, to have its roots in the attempt to give life a purpose of one's own; i.e. the ego: 'This is my life.’
5. When consciousness is purified sufficiently, it becomes clear that the 'I' which has been struggling to have 'my' life is a fabrication, an illusion; the radical discovery is that there is no such 'I' at all.
Jayem (‘Way of Mastery: Foundational Principles,’

“Suffering has a noble purpose: the evolution of consciousness and the burning up of the ego.” – Eckhart Tolle.

Peter Parker (Tobey Maguire): Some spiders change colours to blend into their environment. It's a defence mechanism.
                - Spider-Man (directed by Sam Raimi, 2002).

“Regardless of what role is played, every human being on Earth is a soul who has incarnated for the purpose of soul growth. On each soul’s life blueprint (their road map through life that was created by them before they incarnated) there are lessons to be learned. Each lesson is about a specific fear and the dysfunctional belief that fosters it. A set of circumstances will occur through which that lesson is played out. With each lesson there are five options. I will call them A, B, C, D and E. An Option A is one in which compassion is achieved. An Option A requires the greatest amount of courage and the complete willingness to walk into the fear in order to integrate or dissolve it. It requires the individual to acknowledge how he/she is co creating the events of the lesson and take responsibility. If a soul chooses Option A they will obtain the greatest amount of growth and their path will be a little easier. If, on the other hand, an Option E is chosen, they have run from the fear and will have to recreate the lesson with more challenges. The events in your future all have these 5 options for soul growth. With each probable event you can help minimise or eliminate by making personal compassionate choices.  Keep in mind that whatever the people choose on an individual level is what will be chosen by the government as the government is a reflection of the peoples’ consciousness.” - Devin though Jelaila Starr (‘The Nibiruan Council Perspective on 2009,’ 29 September 2008,

“Conquering any difficulty always gives one a secret joy, for it means pushing back a boundary-line and adding to one's liberty.” - Henri Frédéric Amiel.

“One fine day, a bus driver went to the bus garage, started his bus, and drove off along the route. No problems for the first few stops - a few people got on, a few got off, and things went generally well. At the next stop, however, a big hulk of a guy got on. Six feet eight,
built like a wrestler, arms hanging down to the ground. He glared at the driver and said, ‘Big John doesn't pay!’ and sat down at the back.
                Did I mention that the driver was five feet three, thin, and basically meek?
                Well, he was. Naturally, he didn't argue with Big John, but he wasn't happy about it.
                The next day the same thing happened ‑ Big John got on again, made a show of refusing to pay, and sat down. And the next day, and the one after that, and so forth. This grated on the bus driver, who started losing sleep over the way Big John was taking advantage of him.
                Finally he could stand it no longer. He signed up for body building courses, karate, judo, and all that good stuff. By the end of the summer, he had become quite strong; what's more, he felt really good about himself.
                So on the next Monday, when Big John once again got on the bus and said, ‘Big John doesn't pay!’ the driver stood up, glared back at the passenger and screamed, ‘And why not?’
                With a surprised look on his face, Big John replied,
                ‘Big John has a bus pass.’
Moral of the story: Be sure there is a problem in the first place before working hard to solve one.”

Frankenstein’s Monster (1931, 1935, 1939)
"Certainly I was typed. But what is typing. It is a trademark, a means by which the public recognizes you. Actors work all their lives to achieve that. I got mine with just one picture. … My dear old Monster, I owe everything to him. He’s my best friend." - Boris Karloff.

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